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Post by bec2010 on Dec 21, 2010 19:38:23 GMT 1
Have missed doctors these past few days, so i have decided to write my own little fan fic, it is also a great distraction to revision and well im knew to this whole thing, so Hello everyone Oh and just to note, this will be in a few parts and will be finished in a few days, hopefully! She clutched the photo so tight in her hand, crumpling that perfect photo, the black background with the whitey silhouette. Tears ran down her face, she had got what she wanted, a beautiful healthy baby. Of course this wasn’t Zara talking about herself, she was talking about Karen. “Perfect Mrs Hollins, with the perfect family and the perfect new baby to be and the perfect Rob, who waits on her hand and foot” Zara muttered, it was hard not to feel envious or jealous. Zara clutched her own stomach, putting a protective hand over it, pondering what her baby would have looked like, what she would have looked like pregnant and well, well why it wasn’t her. It was all she ever wanted. “Can I come in” asked Daniel with a sharp knock on the door, Zara quickly pulled herself back together and brushed her top down. “Yes!” Zara snarled back, frightened to show any emotion. “Somebody got out the wrong side of my bed this morning” Daniel shooting a suggestive wink whilst grabbing her waist and pulling her towards him “Maybe we could have a repeat performance tonight, Lisa and Izzy are staying at her friends” “Daniel last night was a huge mistake, I’m not going to be the other woman, if I wasn’t good enough to be your girlfriend, I am certainly not playing second fiddle towards her. I was drunk and well you were there, knew you would be up for it and well you should know Daniel” Daniel laughed “Zara you know last night wasn’t a mistake, and well I cannot leave Lisa, because she’ll do everything in her power to stop me seeing Izzy and well, that little girl means everything to me” “Daniel, get a grip, last night was s*x, nothing more, nothing more than a huge mistake! And do you not think I know how much Izzy means to you, I saved her, me! and you could do nothing more than running back to precious Lisa to play “Happy Families” to be “Super Dad” Daniel, you hurt me and I’m not letting that happen again” Zara shocked by her outburst of sudden emotion, picked up her phone, left the room and slammed the door. She rushed to the toilets and started crying, she was right, last night was s*x but sex with a guy who she cared so much about, who she imagined having children with and a guy she has imagined what their children would look like. She had felt like her old self last night for the first time in ages, she felt confident, happy, sexy, valued and safe. When Daniel held her so close and so tight, she felt that nothing could hurt her anymore and that this was what she truly wanted. She would be getting her revenge on Lisa, for stealing her man and if she kept sleeping with Daniel, it would break Lisa’s heart as much as it had broke her own. However she valued herself to much to play second fiddle and it would break her heart every time he returned home to Lisa. Composing herself she splashed her face with cold water and wiping her mascara from her face, she put on a brave smile and opened the door. Standing outside the entrance to the toilets, Daniel was waiting. “We need to talk, Zara, this cannot keep going on” “My place tonight, 7pm”
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Post by bec2010 on Dec 21, 2010 23:32:26 GMT 1
Zara finished afternoon surgery at 5pm and quickly rushed home to get ready, she wondered if she was mad putting all this effort in for a man she adored but couldn’t give her 100% in return. There was huge delays on the motorway and it looked as if she was going nowhere in a hurry, getting rather agitated and frustrated, Zara started to flick between radio stations, “ I look at you and, I fantasize, your mine tonight” She started to cry, Daniel used to sing “Hungry eyes” to her and took her to see Dirty Dancing as he knew it was her favourite film. Rummaging around in her bag for tissues, Zara was sure she was never ever this emotional at any situation, not even around “Daddy” After a long consultation in her head she decided it was her new hormone treatment and it clearly wasn’t working. After a long wait, it was an easy drive home, but the with the delay she arrived in at 6:45pm.
“Oh Sod It” She said out loud, after the 5th outfit she had tried on “Nothing is fitting right, it all feels to tight, I’m sure after heartbreak your meant to lose weight not put on weight” Eventually she put on her baggy and comfy jeans with a loose white vest top, declaring to herself if he doesn’t want me looking my worst, he cannot have me at my best!
The bell rang, bang on 7pm. “Come in, I’m just in the Kitchen” shouted Zara Daniel casually strolled in, carrying a huge bunch of flowers and a bottle of wine. “Wow, I always knew you looked amazing underdressed, at your best fully undressed” giving her a cheeky wink and pulling her towards him, leaning in to kiss her. Zara put her hand over his mouth and pushed him away. “I didn’t ask you here for that, we need to talk” she insisted with a stern tone in her voice.
Taking a seat at the dining table, Daniel prompted her to start whatever she had to say to him.
“Daniel, you honestly don’t know how much you hurt me. These past three months all I have wanted is just you and well, I still do! I really don’t know how you could have just walked out on me like that, one minute me and Izzy are your everything and the next I’m tossed aside for Lisa, after everything I did, do you not think Izzy going missing hurt me too, I was hoping every day that she was safe and wasn’t scared and knew we were looking for her, on that bridge I was terrified, in case she jumped with Izzy, she isn’t just yours and Lisa’s child Daniel, she was part of my family with you”
Once Zara started she just couldn’t stop, the words kept flowing and her emotions kept spilling out “I have turned to you for everything, knew you would have been there for better or worse, you were not just my boyfriend but also my best friend. You’re the only person around here I feel I have a connection to and that I want to love, love how stupid of me cause to you Daniel I’m nothing more than a leg over and a bit of arm candy. I really thought we had a future together, i even imagined us marrying and having children. Children, yes Daniel I froze eggs because I thought you were the person I could go through that whole process with, who loves me and who would make the best father to our child, but forget it Daniel, I don’t know if too much damage has been done”
Daniel sat with his head in his hands and was gob smacked, tears trickling down his face and Zara started to walk off, she couldn’t look at him for crying.
“Wait, Zara, I love you, I’m sorry, let’s get married, let’s have a baby, I don’t know, I just want you, I want you and Izzy, I want my family” Daniel called after her, unable to string a sentence together so a series of utterances came out.
Zara turned around; she could see the pain in Daniels face and could see how sorry he was. She ran over to him and flung her arms around her, the pair stood in this embrace for around 10 minutes, neither could say anything for crying and neither wanted to let go.
“Zara, I left Lisa before I came here, I knew even if tonight if we didn’t sort things out, I would rather be single than stay with her, I cancelled my evening surgery at the Campus and we had a long chat about how neither of us were happy and we agreed it was the best thing to do for Izzy. I know I have a lot of making up to do and there is still a lot of things we need to work out, but Zara I love you, and I want you. I cannot believe that you had your eggs frozen for me, I’m sorry, I didn’t realise you felt that way, but honestly Miss Carmichael, I love you the future Mrs Grainger, I love our Izzy and I love all our future Carmichael/Grainger juniors”
She took his hand and with his other hand he stroked her face, kissing her. She knew that this was right, so lead him upstairs to their bedroom; she had never felt love like this ever before, but in her life she knew things couldn’t be this good for long.
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Post by bec2010 on Dec 21, 2010 23:48:52 GMT 1
Whilst sitting at her desk, Zara’s phone bleeped it was a text of Daniel, a much better distraction to her paperwork than a cup of coffee. “Future Mrs G, I LOVE you! Last night = Amazing! What time is your last patient today? D x “I love you too darling, however don’t be telling ever one, I might lose grip of this ice queen exterior It’s at 5:45 gorgeous; I should be home around 6pm” “Oh no Miss Carmichael how can we let that happen, we cannot let your ice crown slip, It makes me want you all the more, that I have the real you at home! Gorgeous, I seem to recall you’re the gorgeous one, however I know looking in the bathroom mirror this morning, I did a double take, at how hot I’m looking, must be this love glow Okay 6pm sounds brilliant, I have the most amazing night planned! “Always full of yourself Daniel, I see you haven’t lost that trait, however I think you’re sadly mistaken, you have the love glow but no buff body to match only kidding! Wow I’m excited, it better be good! I’ve grown up Daniel; I’m no longer 30 and only want champagne, I expect a lot more!! Anyway, my next patient calls. text you later baby, Loveyou! Xxx “You better be kidding! I’m glad you’re excited! Have fun, lots and lots of love!! D xxxxx
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Post by bec2010 on Dec 22, 2010 0:23:26 GMT 1
Zara was really excited for this evening, this time two days ago she would have been alone, curling up to a trashy film and eating a ready meal. This seemed all a bit surreal, that she was back with the love of her life and she was happy, the only thing missing was a baby. Looking at her tummy, she pushed it right out, giving the shape as if she was pregnant and had a small bump, she started rubbing it with affection, would it be a boy or would it be a girl, would it look like her or Daniel. She stopped pretending, it might never happen, but at least she had Daniel.
A knock at her office door, “Come in” She said in a positive and upbeat tone Opening the door, there was Karen with the new baby, Holly. “Karen, how lovely to see you, aww, she is beautiful, how are you doing?” “Im doing really well Zara, so far so good, she is sleeping well and eating well, you get back into the swing of things and it all of a sudden feels like you have never had a break, would you like a hold?” “Aww I would love on Karen, she is so cute!” Zara cuddled Holly tightly but making sure not to hurt her, with her being only a day old, her skin was so soft, her skin smelled so sweet and her face made such cute expressions. Zara knew this was exactly what she wanted. “Karen, would you mind taking a picture of Me and Holly on my mobile, I want to send it to someone” with a smirk on her face. Karen clicked away and soon Zara was looking a beautiful picture of herself and Holly, the picture could have been mistaken for a proud new mum holding her new born. “So do tell, who is the person you want to send this too? Well what’s him name?” Karen asked “Promise not to tell, it’s not common knowledge and were waiting for a few weeks until its official” After telling Karen about her and Daniel to a chorus of cheers and gasps, Zara was feeling upbeat and it was only an hour till she would be heading home for her surprise night! She had 5 minutes before her next patient, so quickly ran for a drink.
“Fancy a cup of tea, the cure to all lives problems” asked Heston Before Zara could answer, a wave of nausea overcame her; the smell which she usually loved made her feel so sick. Moving away from him, she answered. “No thank you, I’ll just grab a bottle of water”
Never had she been so excited for the clock to tick from 5:40 to 5:41 to 5:43 and finally 5:54. Packing up all of her stuff, she realised that she needed to pick up some notes from Daniels room. Going into Daniels room, she collected the notes but on the desk was a blank writing pad, It was too tempting. She scribbled down “Daniel 4 Zara” and “Zara loves Daniel” all over it before writing him a small note, it simply read “Your my everything, what a whirlwind past few days, love you so much, Zara x” Applying some lipstick she also kissed the paper several times, she though he would appreciate it and it would cheer him up, as tomorrow was his 12 hour shift. “I have turned into some sort of soppy and love-struck 30 something” She giggled to herself.
Returning to her usual bitchy self, she fired a few digs at Simon and Cherry and left the surgery.
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Post by bec2010 on Dec 22, 2010 0:46:21 GMT 1
Zara sat in her car, opening her phone and reading a message from Daniel “Cannot wait till your home” She sent him the picture of her and baby holly and tried to call him. His phone kept ringing until it finally clicked onto voicemail “Hi sweetie, I am just leaving work now, super excited for tonight, it better be good!! Only joking, I’m not bothered as long as were spending time together. I feel like a teenager again all of sudden and it’s all you’re doing! Did you enjoy the picture, I actually think I look like a yummy mummy! See you soon, hopefully the ring road isn’t too bad and I’ll see you as soon as I can!! I may also have a surprise treat for you, but you have to be a good boy!! Love you xxxxx Zara totally felt as if she had tempted fate, the ring road was horrendous, there had been an overturned oil tanker their during the day and the clean-up was still going on, instead of the usual four only two lanes were open. The road was still a bit slippy in places but was passible, Zara stayed in the inside lane and took it gently, whilst a large red truck was in the outside lane trying to overtake her. She tried to shoot a few dirty looks at the driver as he was causing a danger and tried to hold back, giving him enough room for him to re-join her lane.
The driver took Zara’s gesture and tried to move into her lane, as he moved over, his wheels hit a slippy patch and the whole van spun, Zara screamed, trying to emergency stop, she herself skidding and eventually spinning right into the lorry at a high speed. The impact was brutal and Zara was flung forward, her seat belt bouncing her back off her seat, all the airbags opened and the windscreen shattered. She opened her eyes, drifting in and out of consciousness, she could feel blood running down her face, taking a breath cause her to shiver in agony and she couldn’t feel her legs. Taking one last breath, she closed her eyes and a tear trickled down her badly bruised and cut face.
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Post by bec2010 on Dec 22, 2010 1:39:11 GMT 1
“Hi Zara, its Daniel, I was just wondering what time you will be home, you said 6pm and its now 6:45pm, but well I know the traffic situation and that, sorry if I’m being a bit over protective but I’m just so looking forward to tonight”
“Hi Zara, look if this is too much, and we going too fast, we can always cool it and take it slowly, so if you’ve freeked out, I totally understand, can you just give me a call please to let me know your safe, as it is now 7:15pm. I love you” Daniel had waited for over an hour for Zara and after ringing her several times, but to no avail, Daniel sat down and turned on the Television. He started watching some wildlife show on the local TV station, he reached deep into his pocket and pulled out a ring box, inside was a beautiful white gold diamond ring, tonight was the night, he was going to propose to her, he had never been so sure of anything in his life and he knew Zara was his future. He stared at the ring, how that small band can make such a difference to a couple’s relationship. This was all going like a whirlwind, but he knew they had that relationship where they could never break away from each other no matter how hard they tried. He wondered what she would look like on the day, she would probably have her hair pinned up, golden skin and a beautiful fitted dress, which clung to her beautiful figure. He just hoped that the engagement would settle her for a while, as much as he wanted to become a father again, he wanted to enjoy Zara and them as a couple, he also knew it would be physically draining for them and they would need to be solid together. He imagined Izzy as a bridesmaid, a beautiful but cheeky bundle of energy running down the aisle. Daniel was in a dream world
*We interrupt this television show to bring you breaking news from Letherbridge* Flashed up on the screen. The female news presenter spoke: Good evening and welcome to Letherbridge News 24, Tonight we bring you breaking news of a serious crash that has taken place on Letherbridge ring road, currently the road has been shut and a diversion has been put into place. However we do bring you the tragic news that a lorry and a car has been involved in this collision and the driver of the lorry was pronounced dead at the scene, whilst the young woman, who is believed to be in her 30’s, has been air lifted to hospital where she will be treated, her condition is described as life threatening. Police are trying to notify the woman’s family. We will keep you updated on any developments that do arise, however police are searching the area for evidence but if you do have any information please contact Letherbridge police on 089493 958390 93. Daniel immediately rose to his feet, his breathing unsettled and his forehead in a sweat. He reached into his pocket for his phone and rang Zara, still no answer. Hi darling it’s me, just ring me, I love you, please be sa.. Before Daniel could finish his voice message, he started crying, he knew this was too good to be true, he just prayed that Zara would be okay. He grabbed his car key lying on the table and rushed for the door, he was going to find her. Reaching for the latch on the door about to open it, the doorbell rang. Daniel opened the door and Rob Hollins was standing there with another officer who both took their hats off. Rob looked at Daniel “It’s about Zara, can we come in?”
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Post by bec2010 on Dec 22, 2010 2:10:13 GMT 1
“Daniel, Zara was involved in the collision on the ring road, we believe her still to be in a critical condition, I’m sorry Daniel, Karen was telling me how you have got back together and well since a Mr Jed Gray, is unreachable and has no valid contact details on our system, I thought I would come to you so you can see Zara but also provide us with numbers and details on contacting a Mr Jed Gray” Daniel rose to his feet, he felt as if he was going to collapse, this was it, this was all the horrible things he had ever done, all the playboy antics, the lying and the cheating coming back to get him and they had hurt him in the most cruelest way. The journey from Zara’s to the hospital is only a 10 minute journey, but to Daniel it felt like a life time. “Hang in there mate” Rob patted Daniels shoulder, the siren and the blue light flashing, Daniel couldn’t think straight.
The hospital was crowed the hustle and bustle of people everywhere, Daniel was lead to Intensive Care by Rob. Intensive care seemed so quiet, everyone seemed to sombre, Daniel felt this was a sign that nothing was well and that he was losing Zara. He had given Rob all the details he had for Jed, and just hoped he could help if there was any medical decision to be made and that the news would not tip Jed over the edge.
“Hello, I am your girlfriends consultant, would you like to take a seat. Your girlfriend is very lucky to be alive; she has sustained 4 serious traumas, one to her neck, her head, her back and her pelvis. We are currently trying to stabilize her condition, however her heart and lungs are not working as well as they should be so we have ventilated her to give her the best possible chance” Daniel was being talked to like an idiot and he knew what everything meant, he was a doctor, he just didn’t have the energy to argue. “As I was saying we have ventilated her, she is currently having a blood transfusion and we are waiting for a theatre slot to control the swelling on her brain, I have to be honest the prognosis does not look good, but we are trying our very best. I just have one question for you, I understand Zara’s medical condition of Early Menopause, but I need to ask you how long have you been together?”
Daniel though this was an odd question to ask however he answered “ We have been together on and off for a while, we were together for around 4 months properly, but we split up three months ago, why?”
“So you would have been together 18 weeks ago and you were the only person she was with around that time”
“Yes and Yes” Daniel replied sharply “Why?”
“I’m really sorry Mr Grainger, but we were unable to save your unborn child. We believed it to have been killed on impact and we felt it was best for mother and baby with her current abdominal injuries and her major pelvis trauma, I’m so sorry”
Daniel burst out crying, he was losing Zara but now their unborn child was completely gone. Neither of them had known and it was all either had wanted, cruelly taken away. Zara could of had a child, in fact she would have been having a child, the last two nights cuddled up in bed there was not two of them but three of the sharing the bed. When he rubbed her tummy with affection, he was actually rubbing the baby and not just something he had imagined in his head. That she was already 6 weeks pregnant when they had split up, if only he had noticed sooner, he thought to himself, I might have been able to keep them both safe and we would of nearly been going for our 20 week scan. How could he ever break this news to Zara?
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Post by bec2010 on Dec 22, 2010 13:33:35 GMT 1
Daniel after what seemed forever was eventually allowed to see Zara, they had managed to contact Jed, he consented to all the medical decisions but declared he couldn’t face coming down and couldn’t bear to see his “Alex” in such pain and discomfort. “Zara, it’s me, Daniel” Daniel whispered, whilst stroking her hand, it was all bruised and an IV line coming out of it, attached to several drips. Although Daniel was a Doctor and he had seen all this before, it was different when it was someone you loved and cared about, he was scared. “Zara, I’m sorry, it’s all my fault, me and you, were cursed together” The constant bleep of all the machines, the ventilator coming from her mouth, her chest mechanically raising up and down, all the wires, tubes and lines coming from every part of her body, the bruises and the cuts covering every inch of her and the scared look on her face. This was too much for Daniel, he asked the nurse for 5 minutes fresh air outside.
He went outside for some fresh air, into a small hospital garden, and sat at the wooden bench. Placing his head in his hands, he let out a huge sigh and started to silently sob. A that moment his phone flashed, he had a voicemail, sliding up his phone his home screen picture was of him and Zara around 14 weeks ago, she was laughing and both were pulling a stupid face, the more Daniel studied the picture, the more he thought, she was pregnant there, around a month, maybe that was why she was so happy. A smile of sadness appeared on his face, he was tempted just to shut his phone, then the message came up again this time displaying more information: Voicemail from Zara Carmichael 5:51pm. He pressed play listening to the message several times, he went over and over it in his head, the upbeat tone in her voice, how happy she sounded and how excited she was, and the cheeky way she said she had a surprise for him, he knew Zara loved him and that he was all she wanted, it broke Daniel’s heart though when she said about being a yummy mummy and that unbeknown to her she was nearly half way through her pregnancy and that picture would have been true in 20 weeks. He slammed his phone shut and stood up, composed himself and started walking back to the entrance to the hospital.
Walking through the hospital he walked past the porters station, they were listening to the radio and blaring out was all about the crash “The woman according to a hospital source is critical and it’s a touch and go situation, but we have breaking news the male driver of the lorry has been named and the woman driver of the red Hyundai coupe is thought to be Dr Zara Carmichael from The Mill Surgery in Letherbridge” “Paul, have you heard this, you know your doctor, the really fit one, apparently it’s her involved in the car crash” “Ironic isn’t it Dave, that she’s a doctor with all this medical knowledge and well she’s relying on others of her kind to save her” Another one piped up “Well I’ve just been along to intensive care and according to a nurse working there, it doesn’t look as if she is going to survive and she lost her baby, meant to be pregnant by one of the other doctors in the surgery as well” “Ha, and we thought it all went on in this hospital!” Daniel was wound up by this point and couldn’t listen any longer; they were talking about his girlfriend and baby! He charged into the station and grabbed one of the porters by the neck, pinning him up against the wall. “You’re disgusting; you’re talking about my girlfriend and my baby, not just anyone, but mine! You make me feel sick, I really hope that your wife and children know how much of a horrible man they have related to them” As Daniel was about to swing a punch, he felt himself pull away, he knew this wasn’t the time. He started running away from the porter’s station and towards the direction of the Intensive Care Unit.
He buzzed on the bell to let him into Intensive Care, the door opened with a jolt and around Zara’s bed, there were 5 doctors. “Wh, what’s going on?” Daniel demanded “Zara is making good progress, don’t be so alarmed Sir” a Doctor replied “Although this next stage is critical, as you know we have already operated on her brain and skull, which appear to have been a success as the swelling has decreased dramatically. We now need to operate on her back and neck, this will be a very long operation, Mr Grainger, we are hoping this will be a success it has around a 60% chance of it working and that your girlfriend will be able to walk again with intense physio however there is a 40% chance that it will not work and that your girlfriend will have to be in a wheelchair for the rest of her life, paralysed or our worst case scenario is death if we damage the spinal cord, since we are having to operate so close to it, a Mr Gray has consented to this procedure and out theatre slot is in 15 minutes” Daniel couldn’t absorb all the information they were feeding him with, he understood there was nothing he could do if Jed had consented to it, instead of arguing, he sat on the chair next to Zara’s bed and stroked her face. “We will be back in 10 minutes” a doctor said. Daniel was now alone with Zara, he started talking to her. “Zara, I love you more than anything just hold on and we can make it through this, anything and I mean anything can be sorted, any care you need or any support and I’m here. I hope you can hear what I’m saying, because I have a few things to tell you” Daniel stopped he could feel himself crying, he composed himself and started again “Zara I’ve never felt this way about anyone, the way I feel about you, you’re the best thing in my life, I was going to propose to you tonight, your my family and future, you and Izzy and well our baby, I’m so sorry darling. We were nearly 5 months pregnant, I really don’t know how, you know with everything but we were, it died in the crash. I’m so sorry it’s all my fault, I should have noticed and tried to protect you both” Daniel carried on trying to justify himself “Well I couldn’t even tell you were pregnant, I mean your tummy wasn’t as flat as it was, I just thought well its winter and everyone puts a little weight on in winter, you didn’t show any other symptoms at work, you didn’t rush to the toilet every 5 minutes and I’d never heard you being sick. And well you didn’t even know so how could have I known, I’m just so sorry” At that moment one single tear trickled down Zara’s face, he knew she understood everything he had just said to her. “I’m sorry angel” kissing her cheek. At that moment the doctors came back, moving Daniel out of the way, attaching more drips and wires and taking her to theatre.
“Hi I’m Zara’s nurse, can you please come into this office Mr Grainger” Daniel took a seat and the nurse took a seat at the other end of the desk “We just have a few things to go through, and since well it was your baby, and Miss Carmichael isn’t in a fit state to talk about it, I have to go through it with you. We have had a consultant and mortuary technician examine your child, they have drawn up a report and in their report they have decided the baby was around 18-20 weeks as it had features are developed during this two week period, since they cannot come to a conclusive date, we are filling it medically as 20 weeks, this means you will have to fill out a stillborn certificate, this means the baby will be legally registered as a person although born still. I am just going to go through the rest of the report, We can categorically say that your child was a girl, so we will need a name for her and that the child although was killed on impact is still in a state where we feel it to look like a baby and has sustained no serious injuries. This will mean we need a name for your little girl so we can register her, and we also need to know the arrangements if you wish us to take care of your little girl or if you want us to release her body so that you can arrange a funeral service”
Daniel couldn’t believe what he was hearing, that he was a father to two little girls, Zara would have been over the moon, and that picture couldn’t have been truer. Instead he was a father to an angel, and instead of taking her home, he was taking to her to a funeral directors. “We had never talked about names, we didn’t even know we could get pregnant naturally” Daniel stuttered “Erm although I do have a name in mind, I want to call her Miracle, it was a Miracle Zara got pregnant, it was a Miracle that we got back together and we need a Miracle for Zara to survive” Daniel started to sob, he should have been arranging a birth and a christening instead he was arranging a funeral. “I also want the body released so that we can organise a memorial service”
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Post by bec2010 on Dec 22, 2010 15:02:12 GMT 1
The nurse gave Daniel the certificate; it seemed all the more real now that it was on paper. The funeral director who was linked with the hospital came to visit Daniel, they organised a small memorial service that would take place in a matter of days, they agreed it would be a small occasion, Daniel chose a tiny white coffin lined with baby pink silk and they chose Miracle to be dressed in a beautiful pink and white dress. It seemed wrong to do this all without Zara as it was her child too, he told the funeral director this too and they arranged that they would add some make up to Miracles face and body making her look as normal and as healthy as possible so that Zara could have some photos of her child looking as if it was just asleep. Daniel loved this idea, that they could keep a token of Miracle forever. Daniel was exhausted, Zara’s operation was meant to last for 10 hours and they were only 4 hours down, but he couldn’t leave her, what if something happened and he wasn’t there, he wouldn’t be able to live with himself. The more he was cooped up in that visitors room the more he thought and the more he wished other things had happened. He decided to go and get some fresh air outside. Sitting in the little garden on that same bench, he turned his phone on, he had 89 unread messages, 61 missed calls and 45 voicemails, and he couldn’t bear to read or listen to any of them. Instead he looked through the photo album in his phone, hundreds of photos of him and Zara, some of them funny, some of them serious and some of them private, each photo carried a memory and a story, something that made them laugh or cry and sometimes both. He just hoped she knew how much she meant to him. Standing up, he decided to walk to the shop at the main entrance and grab a coffee and some water, he felt so exhausted and drained he hoped some caffeine would pick him up. On the way to the main entrance he walked pass theatre, he knew Zara was in there and it was a matter of life and death. He tried to look through the little frosted window at the entrance of theatre, he could see nothing and if he was to see anything it would only be the desk entrance, where patients waited ad equipment was kept. Walking on down the corridor he passed Maternity, there would be several babies born today and his baby was one of them, not matter if it didn’t survive it was born. He heard several cries of perfectly healthy babies and felt envious, that should have been him and Zara going into maternity in 20 weeks’ time, ready to give birth to their little girl and not having to worry about death or funerals. Daniel started to sob but he also felt the anger rise, why was it them? He punched the wall so hard, his knuckles started to bleed, he let out a cry in pain, but not in pain of hurting his hand but of the loss of his baby and losing Zara. This wasn’t fair he thought to himself, he felt envious to Karen and Rob, they were old, why should they have been blessed with a child and not him and Zara. Karen and Rob also have 2 perfectly healthy children already so it was just greedy to have more when he and Zara couldn’t even manage one. He stumbled down the corridor clutching his hand; it was hurting a lot but not as much as his heart was hurting with the pain of the baby and Zara. Upon reaching the main entrance, all these flash bulbs went off in his face “Is it true, Dr Grainger, that you and Dr Carmichael are an item?” “How it Miss Carmichael” “It is true that Dr Carmichael was pregnant” “Is Dr Carmichael still alive” The press were hounding him for information, taking constant pictures and shouting many questions. Daniel didn’t know how to respond he wanted to go and punch every single reporter, this wasn’t a story for a paper it was real life and about people’s lives, and he also wanted to break down, the constant barrage of questions made it seem more real and that nothing was ever going to be the same again. Just as he was about to run away, a familiar face appeared through the crowd. “Daniel, it’s me, Julia” Julia hurried towards Daniel, and flung her arms around him, Daniel could do no more than to collapse into her arms and start crying uncontrollably.
Julia led Daniel back to the visitors room and he started telling her how this all happened. He told her that things were terrible with Lisa, that he and Zara got drunk and ended up in bed together, he told her how it felt so right and it was he had wanted for a long time; he had missed Zara so much. He said it was clear that it was what they both wanted. He then went on to tell her about the next day at the Mill, how he felt like the cat that got the cream, that even Heston had even mentioned that he seemed to have a spring in his step back. It was decided between them that they would meet at Zara’s at 7pm, and when he got there, she spilled her whole heart to him. “Julia, it broke my heart when she revealed how I’d made her feel, that she was worthless and that she had nothing” He then went on to describe that he had left Lisa before coming to Zara’s cause he was so sure it was going to work out for them. After a long heart to heart, they went to bed and he described how he had never felt as happy just lying there me and her. Then describing how they had flirted by text all day and it felt like everything was back to normal, he had planned a romantic night where he had ran her a bath, bought her flowers and chocolates, cooked her favourite meal, put on Dirty Dancing to watch and he was going to propose to her, but then this happened! “Oh Daniel, what a whirlwind for you, don’t worry I’m here now and it will all be okay, I kind of had an inkling that you and her were back together, she seemed such a delight in the surgery today, she had a smile on her face all the day and well that’s a miracle for Zara” She started giggling “I also drove past her house on my house calls today and your car was there and well I also found this when I locked up surgery tonight. Julia produced the note Zara had written on Daniels desk” Daniel traced his finger over the paper and over Zara’s writing. “So Daniel how is Zara and well, is it true about Zara being pregnant” Julia asked “Zara is in theatre” Daniel sobbed “They don’t know she could still die” He handed Julia the certificate of Miracle. “Oh Daniel, I am so sorry, I didn’t even realise you were having a baby and 20 weeks, Zara didn’t even look pregnant never mind 5 months, what a beautiful name though Daniel” “Julia we didn’t even know we were pregnant and well Zara I don’t know, she still doesn’t properly know she was pregnant or even that we have lost the baby, we thought Zara couldn’t even have children due to her early menopause, so we never were careful or even paid attention to dates or anything. It came as such a shock and a miracle because we thought she couldn’t have a child. That is why I named her Miracle. Julia held Daniel and he sat and sobbed for at least half an hour.
At that moment a Doctor came into the room, he looked drained and upset. He spoke with a sombre tone, Daniel knew this wasn’t going to be good news, the doctor bowed his head. “I’m sorry Mr Grainger, they were major complications in surgery, her injuries were worse than expected and her spinal cord was already damaged. I’m really sorry, Zara died” Daniel let out a large howl and collapsed to the ground “We will let you know when you can come and view her body, it will need to be identified by yourself as well” the doctor trailed off and left the room closing the door.
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Post by bec2010 on Dec 22, 2010 16:13:40 GMT 1
Daniel walked down the cold dark corridor inside the mortuary; the room in front of him said viewing room, although he had been here several times before, he had never wondered about the word but when it’s your own girlfriend and child you think “Viewing room” is a bit insensitive, as it isn’t a public display. He was now on his own, he left Julia in the relatives room and had walked down here, he wasn’t just on his own in that scene but his family had gone, his girlfriend and his baby girl, he only has Izzy left. He was going to treasure that girl so much; he was never going to let her out of his sight! Zara was dressed in a white gown and was laid flat on a stone cold silver slab. It was only then Daniel could see the extent of Zara’s injuries, her hair always nicely set was pulled back away for her face, her eyes shut so tight, you could see the pain and her wincing, her whole face was covered in cuts and bruises, she looked so different but yet so the same. She was cold but wasn’t froze, her lips still seemed perfect, Daniel bent down and kissed them, he kissed them so softly and gently. Tears streamed down his face and rubbed them away with the sleeve of his jacket. “Zara, I love you” Pulling out the ring from his pocket he slid it onto her finger “I knew you would have said yes, you would have made the most stunning bride ever Mrs G, and our little girls would have been running down the aisle, giggling and flashing us their cheeky little smiles” He stroked her hand it was all swollen and bruised “I just cannot believe it all ended like this, I hope you knew how much you meant and will always mean to me” Daniel sat there for around an hour just talking to her about everything and nothing, until the mortuary technician said that he would have to leave. Although he did offer him to see Miracle, Daniel declined he wanted to see her but when she was at the funeral home, had her dress on and was wearing make up to make her look full term. “I’m sorry sir; you are going to have to take her ring home, as we cannot leave the patient with any jewellery on” Daniel slid the ring back and put it back into its box.
He walked like a ghost along the corridor and back to where Julia was. “Come on Daniel, I’ll take you home” All Daniel could manage to mutter was “My home is at Zara’s”
Julia drove Daniel back to Zara’s house, he insisted that he should be left alone and didn’t want her to come in, after a long persistence she eventually gave in and left him at the door. “Thank you, Thanks for everything Julia” Daniel clasped her hands. Once he shut the door on her, he collapsed behind it and sunk to the floor, it wasn’t for Izzy he would have gone and went with Zara, but he needed to be there for his only family member left and not fail her too! He stood up, Rob had been around and placed all the personal belongings that the hospital and police had took of Zara, her watch, her phone, her jewellery and her perfume. Daniel squirted nearly the whole bottle of perfume on himself and around the house and collapsed on the sofa with her phone, he read through it all, he read all the messages, there was messages of other men but he didn’t care that was weeks ago and none of them seemed to contain much emotion just suggestive talk and none seemed to last more than a few messages. He looked through her albums of photos, all of them either her or him and her. She had different ones on her phone of the two of them and Daniel putting the two collections together had over 1000 of them both. Daniel couldn’t believe that this time last night, she was leading him up to bed and how close and intimate it was, he had never ever felt such a connection before. Zara’s whole house reminded him of her, the way everything was laid out, her coats hung up, her shoes on the shoe rack and the pictures all over the house. Rob had turned the oven off, the lasagne was burnt to a crisp and the TV had been turned off. He knew in the morning he had to take her an outfit to the mortuary, he decided on taking the outfit she had first worn when they had sex, a black v cut dress with an embellished waist, she looked amazing that afternoon. He walked slowly upstairs and opened the door to their bedroom, everything was just as they had got ready this morning and the bed hadn’t been made. He picked up her dressing gown that was on the floor and hugged it tight, it smelt so much of her and if he closed his eyes hard enough he could almost imagine her next to him. He lay down in the un maid bed, her pillow also smelt so much of her, he wrapped the dressing gown around it and cuddled it. He must have dozed off to sleep.
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