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Post by bec2010 on Mar 17, 2011 16:30:54 GMT 1
Okay so i lost my muse with my last Fan Fic, so I've been writing this one for a week(ish) now and well i don't think ill be finishing my other one till i decide how its going to go but I'm happy with this one and I've got plenty ideas so enjoy!
Zara felt utterly stupid, this had all been such a big mistake, it was now more than clear that Daniel did love Lisa and would do anything to stay with her even it was “for the sake of Izzy”. She felt so humiliated, that she truly believed when they lay in bed together that he was going to leave her and they were going to be a proper family, clearly she thought wrong.
It all seemed to happen so fast, she wasn’t sure if it was the pace of the events or that she just couldn’t quite believe what she was seeing. Daniel had suggested that they both take the afternoon off and go back to Zara’s, Zara happily agreed; she just wanted to be with Daniel more than anything. They sat down to a light lunch and had desert upstairs in the bedroom, she knew in her heart of hearts that Daniel did enjoy it this way, a mother for his child at home and sleeping with an attractive woman on the side, she just hoped that she wasn’t being used for sex and Daniel would come to the realisation that he wanted her back. After sex they just lay in Zara’s bed cuddling, Daniel seemed tense and that he wasn’t enjoying himself, he was conscious of time and made this clearly obvious. Zara couldn’t help bar feeling saddened by this and one single tear rolled down her cheek, she was desperate to burst into tears but it clearly wasn’t going to help the situation. They had spent about 10 minutes cuddling; neither facing each other nor speaking to each other and that’s when they both heard it, the door handle turning and heels clanking the wood floor in the hall “Daniel I know you’re here, your car maybe not outside but ive spoken to the receptionist at your place and she said you and her both had the afternoon off together” Lisa making fast pace through the hall and up the stairs. The stairs were strewn with Zara and Daniels clothes where they had made face pace to the bedroom “Daniel don’t even try to lie out of this one, your clothes are all over along with hers” Lisa’s voice becoming louder and louder “Zara, s**t what do I do, I’ll hide in your bathroom, try and get rid of her or something” It was the distressed look an Daniels face that made Zara realise that his love wasn’t just for Izzy but rather for Lisa as well. It hit Zara at that moment that maybe he had just been using her for sex and pure emotionless sex, she knew what ever happened now with the three of them was make or break for her and Daniel. Daniel was completely naked and went to climb out of the bed into the bathroom; it was too late as Lisa burst through the door “Caught you red handed, don’t think you’ll ever see Izzy again, have your tart and I’ll have my daughter” Lisa stood with her hands on her hips, Daniel trying to cover himself up and Zara turning away. “Lisa don’t, im sorry, it’s just sex with Zara, nothing more, I love you” Lisa, Daniel and Zara clearly taken aback by the words Daniel had just uttered. Lisa stood with her mouth wide open and Zara frozen with a look of intense horror. Daniel unclear what to say to either of the women carried on “Lisa I know with us it will always be an unconventional relationship and we have our bad times, but were stable it’s a family, I don’t know I like it and it could work if we both put more effort into it” The tears clearly streaming down Zara’s face, Zara’s trauma brought an instant smile to Lisa’s face. Daniel turned to face Zara “Zara you know with us we have a good time and well the sex, its brilliant but its sex, were not the type to settle down together, do you not realise that” Daniel at this point had started to gather his clothes together and get himself dressed, Zara couldn’t bear to look at him and Lisa practically draped herself over him almost to show she had won. Zara couldn’t even speak, clearly couldn’t believe what she was saying. Daniel and Lisa didn’t hang around for long, and with the door slamming behind them Zara started sobbing uncontrollably. She sunk to the floor and almost could breathe, to be this stupid once is forgivable once when you’re in love but do this twice is just silly and utterly foolish. She loved Daniel, defiantly a past tense although cause at this precise moment she wanted to do nothing more than kill him, he had broken her heart twice.
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Post by bec2010 on Mar 17, 2011 17:04:07 GMT 1
Zara wasn’t clear how she had managed to cope these past few weeks at work, seeing him every day, going to partners meetings together and trying to act normal, it was obvious that both parties felt awkward and that it was clear to other members of staff that whatever had been going on between the on and off couple was defiantly off for good and would not be returning. Zara seemed to function on auto pilot: wake up, shower, gym, and work, eat, bed throwing herself into work, frequently doing paperwork weeks before it was due in and burying her head further and further under paper. The physical strain on Zara was clear to other members of staff, she appeared gaunt, tired and had clearly lost a lot of weight. Mrs Tembe regularly offering to cook for her, replying with a grunt of No back off Zara, Cherry had asked her once if she fancied a drink and Zara didn’t even reply. A knock on Zara’s office door, she opened it with attitude in case it was Daniel instead she was greeted by a sympathetic Julia “Zara are you okay” Julia took a seat in the seat meant for patients and Zara in her doctor’s chair “Do you think im okay, clearly not. You should know all about this you and mac, it’s the exact same thing he leaves you to be with another woman, gets back with you and then leaves you for that same women” Zara had got herself all irate and flustered “Zara I know too well, so don’t get angry with me. Im just coming to see if you want anything, it’s only me and here if you want a chat” Julia leaning over the desk to stroke Zara’s arm. “No fine” Zara grunted back “Zara don’t be like this, I thought me and you were finally getting on and well your nothing like the normal Zara bar the attitude obviously. Your weeks ahead with paperwork, you’re not taking afternoons of here and there for beauty appointments, meeting no men and you’ve lost a lot of weight” Julia was concerned. Zara started crying and cuddled her stomach, burring her head in her chest. Julia alarmed by the position Zara was in “Zara please don’t tell me your pregnant, oh you are aren’t you, I didn’t think you and Daniel would have been so stupid to note use anything whilst things were the way they were” “Im not pregnant Julia, ive just got a pain” this seemed to get Zara more upset, as Daniel was the only man she ever imagined having a child with. “Are you sure Zara, it only takes one time and you would be. Even the most careful of couples can conceive, split condom, missed pill, although please pray to god you’re not as that would make this whole situation a lot more complicated” Zara composed herself, Julia was right they had a much better relationship now and she almost felt Julia was more like a mother than a business partner. “No, I cannot be pregnant, ive gone through the menopause” Zara opened up to Julia and told her everything, Julia sat with a disbelieving look on her face, she couldn’t believe she had suggested Zara could be pregnant and how much this must have upset her. Julia felt her maternal instinct kick in and hugged Zara, Zara collapsing into Julia’s arms “Zara, it’s all going to be okay, im here for you and well men, who needs them” Julia trying to sound as upbeat and positive as possible. “I just want to go home” Zara replied, with that Zara gathering her stuff and heading for the door.
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Post by bec2010 on Mar 17, 2011 17:42:38 GMT 1
Zara awoke the next morning she had an appointment with her gynaecologist at 10am so had the morning off work, she looked at her phone there was text of Julia offering that if Zara wanted she would come to her appointment with her, although Zara regarding Julia like a mum, she wasn’t like a mum enough to come to hospital appointments with her. Zara was feeling terrible, her symptoms seemed to worsen these past few months, her mood swings had become more frequent and she always seemed tried, she guessed she would have to put up with this as it was her conditioning worsening, she could always tell when it was about to progress as she had missed her last two periods, the gaps between periods becoming longer and the volume of the period less and less. Her hot flushes seemed to always happen now, always feeling hot and for the first time Zara was sick this morning, she decided she was going to the right place, the hospital. “So Miss Carmichael, how has things been since the last time we met?” The Doctors asked her Zara explained how she thought things had got worse and how her symptoms were now more frequent. “Okay so when was your last period” the Doctor asked Zara “The 1st of March” Zara replied “Right so if we are now on the 5th of May, this clearly shows that you have missed your last two periods” the Doctor said whilst looking at his calendar “Well done, genius! 5 years at medical school and you’ve calculated a woman’s cycle” Zara replied rather sarcastically however not brave enough to say this loud enough that the doctor could hear it “Okay so I just want to run a few tests, Im going to need a urine sample, a blood sample and a scan, Miss Carmichael have you had a sexual partner since the 1st of March, if yes did you use any form of contraceptive” “Im a 32 year old, not a nun so to your first question yes and to the second No, as a dried up old woman who cannot conceive I don’t see why I would need to” Zara rudely replied back “Miss Carmichael there is still need to use contraception, although the chances of you conceiving are highly unlikely almost an uncertainty, a tiny percentage still can and you can contract sexually transmitted diseases” the doctor started scribbling notes. It had never crossed Zara’s mind that there was a still a small chance of her conceiving naturally, she could have been having Daniel’s baby may times over and everything would have been okay. The nurse came in and took bloods and urine from Zara and the Doctor performed a scan on Zara, the probe moving over Zara’s stomach, the doctor suddenly turning the screen away from her view, his face looked worried and called the nurse back in with the results along with a senior Doctor. The three of them pondered over the screen, several “umm” “oh” uttered around in the air, and Zara was starting to feel scared herself. “Just tell me what it is” Zara demanded “Well Miss Carmichael it seems as you have conceived, this is your healthy 7 week old foetus but” the doctor changed his tone and dipped his head in a sombre tone “But we have found a large mass in your womb, we think it could possibly be a tumour or ulcer possibly fibroids but more and extensive tests will need to be carried out and we strongly suggest you abort this baby”
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Post by bec2010 on Mar 17, 2011 19:17:49 GMT 1
Zara felt sick this was all too much to handle, she was pregnant but had something wrong with her, no one actually sure what it was. “Miss Carmichael, are you okay?” The doctor seemed concerned over Zara’s sudden pale face and Zara vomited onto the floor. She wasn’t quite sure if she was sick because she couldn’t process everything that was happening to her or it was because of the pains in her stomach. “Okay, everything’s okay, you’ve clearly had a rather large shock Miss Carmichael, so to be on the safe side were going to keep you in, give you some fluid and try to run some non-evasive tests on your pregnancy and the suspected mass, is there anyone you would like us to call?” the doctor asked Zara thought for a moment, she wanted to say Daniel because after all it was his baby too but he wouldn’t care and if he came it would only be out of guilt. “Julia” Zara replied, Zara feeling very weak and if she was going to vomit again.
“Zara” Julia’s face full of warmth and giving Zara a large hug “Julia you were right im pregnant, and I would be so happy if that was just the stand alone case because it’s what ive always wanted and I wouldn’t care if Daniel wasn’t involved or not but it’s not Julia, they found a mass in my womb” Zara’s face crumpled and she started to cry “Oh Zara” Julia’s face appeared shocked and she looked away from Zara “Do they know what it is?” “No they’re going to run a few tests but they probably won’t be able to tell anything until they can have more of an internal look which means I will lose or have to abort this baby” Zara clung to her tummy. Julia couldn’t actually believe how bad things were for Zara, simply declaring to Zara that whatever happens she would be there for her, like a mum! Zara hugged Julia; Zara had never really missed her mum until now and was so glad Julia was going to be there. “So would there be a chance in you having this baby?” Julia questioned, she didn’t want to seem to interfering but wanted to try and find a positive for Zara. “They said if it’s a tumour, the pregnancy will probably accelerate the growth of it and they would have to do further tests to find out if it is benign or cancerous and if it’s a cyst I could probably carry to 25 weeks without it bursting and then it depended on how strong the baby was. Julia it just seems everything I have ever wanted is being taken away from me” “Zara, are you going to tell Daniel” Julia questioned, this was an immediate conversation killer, Zara sat deep in thought for 20 minutes, several umm and ah’s, faces of sadness and faces of happiness, Julia wasn’t sure what to make of this and then Zara replied. “Can you tell him to come here for me, he has a right to know after all its his child, he was part of the act that got it here and I cannot leave such a Burdon to you to keep a secret” “As long as it’s what you want Zara? Julia replied “It’s not about what I want, it’s about what’s best for our baby” Zara replied.
Julia pulled up at Daniel and Lisa’s, only Daniels car was parked outside and Julia walked up the garden path, finally knocking on the door. Daniel answered “Julia what are you doing here?” Julia asked to come in and told Daniel to take a seat “Is Lisa in?” “No she and Izzy have gone to visit her sister in Scotland for a few days, and I said I would stay for work as ive took all my annual leave” “Okay, well Daniel it’s about Zara” Julia changed her tone “So what you telling me about Zara for, me and her were over, its history, we would have never worked. Im settled with Lisa, a bit mismatched but were a family and she can give me another child” Daniel replied almost saying it in a tone where he was trying to convince himself that this was true. “Well Zara’s carrying your child, she’s around 7 weeks pregnant…” before Julia could finish her sentence, Daniel claimed that this couldn’t be true, Zara had gone through the menopause and Julia explained that she understood but it was true, Daniel asked her to carry on. “Well she is in hospital, they have found something else in her womb, they think it could be cancer, fibroids, a cyst or possible a collection of blood and debris, they cannot be sure until they have a closer examination and have conducted more tests, but they have advised her to abort the baby with the complications of her condition and that these procedures can cause her to miscarry” For all the bitterness and the lack of friendship currently between Zara and Daniel, he understood that she did want a child and this would be causing her so much heartache. Daniel stood up and put his hands over his face “so our baby is going to die” Daniel seemed upset and using our baby showed Julia that Daniel cared. “It’s not me you need to ask these questions or show this care to, its Zara and as much as your hating each other at the moment, Zara and the baby need you” Daniel grabbed his coat and put his shoes on “Okay lets go to the hospital”
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Post by bec2010 on Mar 17, 2011 22:55:43 GMT 1
Daniel walked into Zara’s room looking rather sheepish, Zara turned and faced him, he reached out for her hand and she pulled herself away. Julia at this point thought it was best if she left the room, and wait in the relatives room “So” Daniel thought this was very awkward and was unsure as to what to say, he looked down at the floor and continued “So we conceived a baby” that was all he managed to say “Guess so, its 7 weeks so it isn’t even full formed and well I just can’t do this Daniel” Zara managed a reply back “What do you mean you cannot do this” Daniel questioned “I want to have a termination. Ive wanted this all my life, a baby, knew that one day I would feel the maternal instinct and become a mummy. Obviously that wasn’t my set plan, as now I cannot even have this baby, this womb situation, the non-existent me and you, I couldn’t put my child through that” Zara seemed set in her ways. Before Daniel could even reply, the doctor came into the room. “Miss Carmichael we want to discuss a few things with you, are you happy for this gentleman to be in the room with you” Zara replied with a stern “No” Daniel tried putting up a fight that he was the baby’s father and he should have some input, Zara kept declining. Daniel let the room and stood vigilant outside. “We have some good news for you Miss Carmichael; we don’t think the mass in your womb is cancerous by looking at the anti-bodies, white and red blood cells in your blood. Obviously that could change but to give us the best inclination we want to take some cells from the very bottom of your womb, this does carry a slight risk, 10% of pregnancies involved in this procedure end in miscarriage, we advise you to think very carefully” the doctor explained that he would give Zara 5 minutes and he would be back, he asked if she wanted her visitors back into the room, she declined the offer of Daniel but insisted Julia came back in. “Julia, they don’t think it’s cancerous” Zara felt a smile spread across her face “I could be having a baby after all” Julia was delighted at this bar the end of the statement “Are you sure that’s wise Zara, you and Daniel cannot even bear to be in the same room as each other for 5 minutes never mind having a child together” “Julia whatever horrible and emotionless man Daniel maybe in a relationship, he is a good dad and I would trust my child with him and Julia I couldn’t imagine having a child with anyone else bar Daniel, as stupid as it sounds because I cannot stand him at the minute, but I loved him for a long time and he was the first man ive ever loved and that has to count for something” Zara clearly taken aback by what she had just admitted. The doctors re-entered the room, Daniel still waiting outside, the explained to Zara since she had consented to the procedure how it would work and what would happen after, how long it would take for test results and how they would do a 4D scan after to have a look at the mass, trying to collect as much data as they could to give Zara the best idea of what it was before, she chose the option to carry on with the pregnancy or not. The procedure was uncomfortable and she clung to Julia’s hand, praying in her head that her tiny foetus would cling on in there and everything would be okay. They had it on a petri dish, almost invisible to the naked eye, a few cells which would decide her future and the future of her baby. They then performed a 4D scan, explaining that the shape and the density of the mass looked like an non-cancerous tumour, but they couldn’t be definite until they got the bioscopy results back of the cells they had just took. Daniel re-entered the room, he gave Zara a sympathetic look “So what’s the diagnosis Doc” talking to Zara “Clearly not the time for your so called humour Daniel, but they think its good news, they think the tumour may not be cancerous” “So if the tumour isn’t cancerous, does our baby have a future” Daniel asked Zara wasn’t sure what to say back, she didn’t want to tell him that with or without him this baby meant everything to her and she would bring it up on her own, that if everything was okay, she wouldn’t even think twice, this baby was everything she wanted. “Yes Daniel I think if everything is okay, we will be becoming parents” Zara replied with a smile and a smile spreading across Daniels face too “So when do you get your results back” “Tomorrow, 9am” Zara replied “Do you mind if I stay here then, I’ll sleep in the chair or in the relative’s room, I want to know what’s happening to our baby” “Do what you wish Daniel but by no means are we friends again, you clearly only care about our child and do not even care what happens to me, cause Daniel tomorrow I could have cancer and there would be no baby Carmichael, you do realise that, of course you do but it’s probably best and then you can never let temptation get in the way ever again of yours and Lisa’s precious relationship” Zara was being rather snappy and couldn’t hold back how she felt any longer. “Of course I care Zara I spent the best part of two years of my life with you, of course I have feelings for you, I want you to be well and I know if our child is going to live that means you’ll live too” Daniel instantly regretted what he had said, he didn’t know if it was the heat of the moment but all these feelings started to come back for Zara and he leant over to kiss her, Zara almost reciprocating but quickly turning her head way. “You’ve hurt me twice, Im not going to let it happen again. Our baby’s father, nothing more” Zara sharply replied, she could feel her heart sinking and her eyes stinging with tears, that was it Zara had said the realisation, they were both going to become parents but it had gone far too far for them as a couple and they would never be together.
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Post by bec2010 on Mar 30, 2011 19:21:10 GMT 1
It was 9am the next morning, Daniel had slept in the relatives room all night, tossing and turning partly because he was so uncomfortable but also that he cared for Zara, no matter what he wanted her and his baby to be okay. It played on his mind last night’s events, leaning over to kiss Zara, nothing seemed more right but things had surely gone too far between the pair but the more he thought the more he though he actually had feelings for her, not just friendly feelings but something deeper than that. Zara had lay awake most of the night, she just wanted everything to be alright this morning, she wanted somebody to call her “Mummy” so much but also she wanted herself to be around for this child, hoping she didn’t have a critical illness. Zara knew this baby no matter what would be safe and cared for by Daniel, but she knew if she wasn’t around Lisa and Daniel would bring up this baby, the thought of Lisa she couldn’t bear. She never ever wanted that woman near her child, she had already taken her man and it was the use of “her man” that had played on her mind. Zara knew she still had feelings for Daniel and wanted to do nothing more than kiss him back last night, but with everything going on she could never let him hurt her again. Daniel entered the room and gave Zara a warm smile; he walked over to her hospital bed, brushed back her hair and kissed her on the fore head. “You okay?” Daniel asked Zara started crying, he sat down on the bed next to her and put an arm around her, Zara nestling her head into his chest “Im so scared Daniel, im scared that my, sorry our baby isn’t going to be okay Daniel, I know I told you yesterday Daniel that I couldn’t do it, but I want to do the whole mum thing more than anything. I know this baby might live or die, I might live or die, but promise me you’ll never leave it” Zara looked into Daniels eyes “Are you joking Zara! I’ll never ever leave our baby but don’t be stupid you’re going nowhere” Daniel tried to make the last part of the sentence light hearted
At that moment the Doctors entered the room, Daniel pulled Zara in closer as if he was protecting her. “Okay Miss Carmichael we have your test results back, we can confirm it isn’t cancer” The senior doctor finished. Daniel kissed Zara’s head and Zara started crying tears of relief. Another Doctor continued “But Miss Carmichael you do have Fibroids, although not posing such a large risk as cancer it does mean they maybe a few complications, it means you will be more susceptible to a miscarriage before 12 weeks, it increases the risk of premature labour dramatically and we will have to deliver your baby 3 weeks early” Zara was relieved that there was still a risk; it was possible that she was becoming a mother and she was delighted, and by the reaction on Daniels face he was delighted too. The doctors explained that they would be back along later and would bring a midwife with them to draw up a plan of how her pregnancy was going to be handled. Zara wasn’t sure if it was because she was so happy about this baby that she no longer felt anger towards Daniel, but wanted to kiss him, that he was going to give her a long awaited child. The atmosphere seemed less tense and Daniel still had a firm arm around her, Zara moved back to lying down on the bed and Daniel lay with her, clearly shocking Zara but understood it was probably because Daniel was excited about this baby. He still had one arm around her neck but moved his other one from by his side onto her stomach, Zara also placing her hand on top. Daniel still had a large smile on his face “Im only lying like this because the chair was so uncomfortable last night, not because I like you” Zara started to laugh. The pair must have fallen asleep like this because they were awoken by a gentle shake off the midwife. “Oh im really sorry, you both looked so comfortable” The midwife said, whilst Zara and Daniel awoke, clearly both shocked, losing all excitement and coming back to the reality of that they weren’t together. “Okay so ive been told of your medical condition by your Doctors and looked through both of your notes and have drew up this pregnancy plan” Zara and Daniel started to read through this document, it explained Zara would have more scans than a usual pregnancy, one at 8,10,12,16,20,25,30,34 and finally 36 weeks, that her bloods would be taken every other week, she would see the midwife twice a week and their baby would be delivered at 37 weeks. Zara would be prescribed folic acid and prenatal vitamins, she was also given a list of what to do and what not to do. “Gosh, are we planning a war or a baby” Zara joked
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Post by bec2010 on Mar 30, 2011 21:49:57 GMT 1
Daniel had left the hospital after almost staying for a day, he hadn¡¦t checked his phone in the whole time he was there, he had a couple of texts, one of Lisa asking what he was up to and where he was, typical he thought, the other of Julia asking if everything was alright and would he give her a ring and the last one of Zara. The one of Zara must have only just been sent and seeing the name ¡§Zara Carmichael¡¨ flash up on his phone made him smile, it read ¡§Thank you Daddy, x Z¡¨ it made him smile even more, although he knew Zara would never let anything happen with them ever again and that was what made him sad. He knew now that at the time he chose Lisa because it was stability, the relationship wasn¡¦t rocky and he was being self-centred, wanting a normal family. He regretted this because everything he now realised he felt for Zara inside, he could do nothing about and Lisa didn¡¦t set his heart on fire but Zara did. A tear trickled down Daniels face, how could have he been so stupid. He knew children were a main factor, Lisa could give him more children and Zara well he thought couldn¡¦t, shallow he realised, but here we are Zara is having my baby he thought, he thumped the wall in anger, this was all his fault. He took a deep breath and texted Zara back ¡§No problem Mummy, you and baby Grainger sleep well, I¡¦ll see you both tomorrow x D¡¨ He kept deleting and retyping, finally sending the original. He just wanted to be with them both, he had tried convincing himself that this was just the feelings at him becoming a dad again but came to the conclusion of regardless of this baby, he wanted to be with Zara. Daniel called Julia and updated her, she was relieved and felt much better about the idea of the baby since he said him and Zara were speaking again. He then finally went to call Lisa, it went straight to answer phone so he decided he wouldn¡¦t bother ringing again. His phone flashed again it was another message from Zara ¡§Looking forward to it, can you do me a huge favour? Can you bring me some clean clothes, although I think we will be out of here by tomorrow afternoon!! Xxx¡¨ Daniel noticed the extra kisses, he wasn¡¦t sure if Zara felt this way too or it was her just trying to be nice to persuade him. He replied saying he would and he would be there around 1pm. Daniel was still sitting on the bench outside of the hospital, he decided the air was good for his head and checked Facebook, he saw eventually Jimmi had joined the world of Facebook as he had a friend request off him, he saw Lisa had uploaded a few photos of Izzy in Glasgow, he liked every one of them and clicked on to Lisa¡¦s profile. He looked through a few things ¡§Lisa Torrez is in a relationship¡¨ funny how they had never accepted each other¡¦s relationship requests and it would never be apparent that they were seeing each other, they had no photos together, never wrote on each other¡¦s wall and Lisa had wall posts from other men, all innocent and about classes but showing more affection than he ever would with his full stops at the end of his messages. He looked on Zara¡¦s profile knowing full well she hadn¡¦t used it in months, her last status was on the 15th of October 2010 reading: Holiday with my DG! Hurray! Daniel started crying it brought back memories of Izzy¡¦s kidnapping but mostly how much Zara had done for him and how he had treat her like rubbish, he totally regretted all of this but not for one minute did he regret creating this baby, it was his permanent link with Zara. Daniel remembered how happy he and Zara were before that week, how he thought she was going to have his baby and how he was going to propose to her, funny what children do to you he thought. Daniel returned home, although it wasn¡¦t home it was a house, it had no feelings about it and it was more of Lisa¡¦s and Izzy¡¦s than his. He washed some dishes, hovered the living room and hung a suit out for the next day. Climbing into bed, he looked at his phone once more, another message of Zara ¡§Thank you Daddy DG! Don¡¦t bring something that will make me look horrible or something that isn¡¦t ironedƒ¼! Else I and baby will have to have words with you! Xx This made Daniel laugh and he settled down to sleep.
Zara was still awake, she had enjoyed her night with Daniel, things weren¡¦t brilliant between them but they could be friends for this baby and friends only! She did want more but knew he couldn¡¦t have another chance of letting her down or breaking her heart, but would it be so bad she thought to herself, allowing him to love her again even if it was for only a short time, it was better than being on her own. She then thought it was all just the excitement of finding out she was pregnant and it would be the hormones, any way he didn¡¦t want her, he wanted Lisa.
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Post by bec2010 on Mar 30, 2011 21:51:16 GMT 1
Two new parts up, will try and do another one soon! Sorry about all the funny punctuation, its my blackberry totally dying xx
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Post by bec2010 on Mar 31, 2011 18:40:35 GMT 1
Daniel had been at the campus all morning with Mrs Tembe, it had been a nightmare she had been constantly on his case, about how he must take responsibility for Lisa and Izzy and that it wasn’t good in the eyes of the lord that they were unmarried, had a child and were living together, that was the last thing he was bound to do was to take responsibility for Lisa. He had went to Zara’s in the morning, the weather was rather dull for the middle of May, so he had brought her a pair of jeans, a blouse, some flat pumps and her long pink coat, hopefully this would gain approval from miss Carmichael he thought, he had also filled her fridge and cupboards with food.
It was 12pm, an hour before he was ready to go and get Zara and he had an empty waiting room. He decided to stay in the office and not face another ear bashing of Mrs Tembe, he caught up on paperwork, sent a few emails and phoned Julia. Although he always thought he and Julia never saw eye to eye with each other, it was a different kettle of fish when it involved Zara, Julia was lovely to him and couldn’t give him more time. He tried ringing Lisa again, it went through. “Hello it’s me, how’s Izzy?” Daniel asked “Hi, fine, look im really busy, Izzy will ring you later and we will see you tomorrow” Lisa replied sharply With that Daniel pressed the call end button on his phone, what had he chosen they couldn’t even have a proper conversation and clearly no love between them, even the texts with Zara were more passionate. He sent Zara a text “Hello Mummy! I’ll see you soon, hope you approve of clothing! T-Rex Tembe has been a nightmare xx Daddy” With that text he packed up his things and left to go and get Zara.
Daniel walked onto the ward and towards Zara’s room. “Oh Sir, your girlfriend won’t be long she’s just having some bloods taken, sorry it’s so late, seems she has developed morning sickness or should I say all day sickness” the nurse stopping Daniel. Daniel sat in the room with the holdall of Zara’s clothes and waited for her. Zara came back about half an hour later, looking very pale. “You okay Z” Daniel asked, Zara came over and sat on his knee curling up to his body “Daniel I feel rubbish, they have assured me though this is all normal and it’s just morning sickness although this baby seems to think it is acceptable for it to happen morning, day, night and through the night” Daniel rubbed Zara’s back and put his other arm around her “Uhoh, we have a naughty baby!” This made Zara laugh “So has Daddy brought some nice clothes” She said whilst opening the bag. “Ah we have my favourite pink jacket, a white blouse, and my favourite pair of jeans” Zara carried on whilst lying things out on the bed “And then we have my pink pumps and …” Zara held up the underwear Daniel had brought for her, it was a set he had bought her when they were together, it was from Victoria Secret, it was a white lacy rather revealing and very naughty. She wasn’t sure what to think of this, or how to respond, was he hoping for something between them, did he want her back, did he want sex or did he just pick up anything. What would she say would she ignore it and get changed or would she make a comment? “Well what should we give daddy, 5 no that’s too harsh, 8 out of ten for his choice in clothing” Ignoring the underwear situation and instead talking to the baby. Zara went into the toilet and got changed; waiting for her was the nurse ready to take her IV line out and to give her some medication.
They arrived back at Zara’s house and Zara invited Daniel to stay for the afternoon. She was pleasantly surprised that her cupboards were filled and that he had bought fresh things for the fridge. She saw the packet of chocolate bars in the fridge and grabbed three and threw one at Daniel “One for Daddy, One for Mummy and One for baby” Zara smiled and Daniel burst out laughing “Come on Zara, at 7 weeks the baby hardly needs a full chocolate bar, are we not sure mummy doesn’t want two?” Daniel walked over to Zara and put his hands around her waist. Zara pulled a stupid face and then asked “So what are we doing this afternoon then?” Daniel was taken a bit aback, this felt all so perfect being a family but did Zara want him or what, this was all getting far too confusing, but for the mean time he wanted to enjoy whatever was happening between them “Hmm okay I was thinking, we could watch a DVD, get a takeaway and lots of sweets” “Perfect” Zara replied, at the same time she was wondering how had it ended up like this, what was happening, a couple of days ago this would have been an impossibility, he had Lisa, why did he want to spend time with her, however she did enjoy the company and it allowed her to be close to Daniel without him hurting her.
They both spent the afternoon cuddled up on the settee, Zara lying between Daniels legs with her head rested on his chest and a blanked covering them both. They had watched Dirty Dancing and Taken, each of their favourite films, Daniel took this as a sign that although they had bought that DVD when they were together Zara had never gotten rid of it, that must meant she still had some feelings towards him. Zara had eaten a full tub of ben and jerry’s ice cream, a family sized bag of Malteasers and half eaten Daniels Curly Wurly. “The baby is starving” Zara giggled when Daniel gave her a glaring look, he playfully giggled back and kissed her on the forehead. Zara titled her head up and looked at Daniel, she now lying directly on top of him, both of their faces facing each other. Daniel moved his hand and brushed Zara’s hair out of her face and kissed her passionately on the lips, Zara instantly reciprocating. She started to fumble with the button and belt of his pants and Daniel started undoing the buttons on her blouse. Daniel moved onto kissing her neck whilst unbuttoning her jeans and Zara taking Daniels shirt off. “Stop” Zara shouted “Im going to be sick” Zara ran to the toilet and started being sick, Daniel ran up after her, pulling her hair back from her face and rubbing her back. The sickness carried on for over half an hour and once Zara had stopped, the moment had passed. Daniel carried her into the bedroom and put her into bed; he got in the other side and cuddled her in tight, and both still dressed in just underwear. “Looks like our baby doesn’t want Mummy and Daddy to be together” Zara sighed Daniels sign was larger “I guess this is what just friends means” Daniel had tears in his eyes, he wanted to kiss her again, there was so much passion and love between him and Zara, there was nothing like this between him and Lisa. Why had he chosen Lisa, it was all a big mistake but he knew nothing could happen until Lisa got back, it was about time he started doing things properly.
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Post by bec2010 on Apr 20, 2011 8:24:09 GMT 1
Daniel woke up, Zara was still fast asleep next to him, he stroked her face a few times and kissed her on the forehead, and she let out a whimper but didn’t wake. Daniel left a note by Zara’s bed side “Ive gone to sort something’s with Lisa, Zara I don’t know what to think or feel anymore, I’ll always be here for you and our baby love Daniel” Daniel couldn’t believe what he was about to do, Zara surely wouldn’t let Daniel back in her life this easily. Daniel’s car pulled up outside of Lisa’s, her and Izzy had already arrived home. He opened the front door, Lisa was sitting on the sofa in the living room and Izzy must have been upstairs having a sleep “Hi, did you have a nice time” Daniel asked sitting in the armchair at the other end of the room “Um yeah, didn’t really want to come back” Lisa replied, seeming rather uninterested “Oh, Oh… Oh” Daniel muttered what Lisa has just said made the conversation awkward and very awkward; however he continued “Ive got something to tell you” Lisa suddenly seemed interested, turning to face Daniel “Well up until 4 weeks ago, I and Zara had been together behind your back for about 5 weeks” Lisa sharply replied “Yes Daniel this is old ground you told me, you loved me and well I know this anyway” Daniel continued “Well around 1 and a half weeks into it, we, well we, Erm, well, me and Zara must have conceived a baby, because Zara is nearly 8 weeks pregnant” Lisa felt as if she had been punched in the stomach, not because she cared about Daniel, nor loved him but now she didn’t have the control over Zara of having her man “So what does that mean” Daniel started again “I don’t know Lisa, my head is all over the place, at the moment my only focus is Izzy and my new baby, but I know this is not what’s best me being with you and that’s why it’s over, and it’s not over so I can be with Zara but more until I decide what’s going on in my head” Lisa started to laugh “Typical Daniel, Typical! You’ll never know what you want, because you always want the next thing and well done, that’s twice you’ve conceived a baby when your actually not with the woman, but god knows with you, that could be so many more” Daniel wasn’t sure how to take Lisa, if she actually just didn’t care or if she was about to burst into anger. “Don’t even think im angry Daniel, im relieved because staying with you for another day is longer than enough. I didn’t want to come back because ive met somebody else, his names Dean, he lives in Scotland, he’s a builder and well im so glad were over because I can go and be with him, but don’t think im being left with Izzy, no you can have her to live your perfect life with Zara, have the responsibly of a child because it’s not easy work Daniel” With that Lisa stormed out
Daniel sat in the chair, his head in his hands. It was amazing how his life had changed in a week; he was now a father to two children, a single parent, confused, single and homeless.
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