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Post by bec2010 on Apr 20, 2011 22:16:48 GMT 1
Daniel was still sitting with his head in his hands whilst Izzy was fast asleep, he trying to process his thoughts and emotions but came to no conclusion. Daniel phone rang, the name flashing up “Zara Carmichael” “Hello” Daniel answered “Help…Daniel…I don’t know…” Zara was crying and uttered the words through sobs “Zara what’s wrong” Daniel rose to his feet and a tone of seriousness spread across his voice “Daniel….Im Sorry…Im in so much pain, Im bleeding, the bed sheets are covered in blood” Zara struggling for breath “Okay Zara, keep calm, sit on the edge of the bed, don’t move, I’ll be over in 5 minutes, I love you so much” At that moment Daniel realised that he did love Zara and just wanted to be with her “I love you too Daniel, more than anything” Zara stuttered through sobbing Daniel grabbed Izzy out of her bed, still in her Pj’s and very confused as to why she was being rushed into the car, whilst in her bed clothes, she let out a little cry. “It’s okay baby, were going to see Zara she’s poorly, just go back to sleep” Daniel stroking Izzy’s head whilst steering with the other hand. Daniel speed through several 30 Zones and his driving became erratic; the usual 20 minutes to Zara’s house only took 8 minutes. Daniel pulled up onto the drive, picking up a sleeping Izzy and rushing through Zara’s front door, placing Izzy on the sofa downstairs, and then leaping up the stairs three at a time. He hadn’t prepared himself for what he was about to see. Zara was curled upon the floor, wincing in pain, tears running down her face and her white bed sheets covered with a red blood stain. “Okay Zara, im here don’t worry” Daniel said whilst holding her hand “Zara okay im going to help you” Daniel felt strange it was his baby, the woman he loved and yet he had to be the doctor in this situation. “Okay Zara, have you passed any clots or mucus?” Daniel had managed to get Zara looking at him and had sat her up with a pillow behind her back “No…Daniel…I Don’t know…No I haven’t…Im losing our baby Daniel, it’s all my fault im sorry” “It’s okay Zara, no clots or mucus is a good sign you should now that, don’t be so stupid, it’s not your fault, I love you and this will be okay” Daniel starting to lose his doctor exterior, he knew this wasn’t good, he was desperate to cry. “Zara if you just lie down, put the pillow at the bottom of your back so your pelvis is titled up and im going to examine your cervix” Daniel’s doctor mode returning Daniel started the examination; he knew it wasn’t good, in a pregnancy the cervix should be closed however Zara’s was open, and only meant one thing, that Zara was having a miscarriage. Zara still lying on the floor, looking to Daniel for signs of hope, he shook his head and lay next to her, putting his arms around her tightly and nuzzling her head into his chest, Zara was crying hysterically and her body physically shaking. “Im so sorry Zara, I think we’ve lost our baby, I love you, so much, im sorry, you are the most beautiful woman ever, ill love you regardless and we can get through this, but you need to do one thing for me” Daniel tilting Zara’s head up “I need you to get dressed, we have to go to the hospital”
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Post by bec2010 on Apr 20, 2011 22:55:06 GMT 1
*Typing as fast as i can*
Daniel had to pick Zara up off the floor, she had no physical strength and tears still streaming down her face, he put fresh underwear onto her and a clean set of clothes, he hated to admit it but she looked like a frightened teenager, her face had lost all glow and her eyes loosing sparkle. She looked so tired and frail, he really wanted to make this all stop but he knew there was nothing he could do for her. He kept kissing her forehead and holding her tight in his arms, kept repeating that he loved her and she saying it back. Zara couldn’t say much, she just didn’t know what to say and was too devastated to speak. He stripped the bed and carried Zara and the sheets downstairs, placing the sheets into the washer. Daniel carried Zara into the living room, Izzy stirring slightly on the sofa “Daniel why do you have Izzy” Zara sat next to the little girl and started stroking her hair, whilst humming a tune, tears rolling down her face. “Lisa left it’s a long story, but you and Izzy are my priority now, don’t worry we will get through this as a family” Daniel reassuring Zara. Daniel decided to call ahead to the hospital, making sure everything was sorted and they could rush through, saving Zara some dignity in case she came face to face with any of her patients. Whilst Daniel was in the kitchen, Izzy woke up. She rubbed her eyes and straight away recognised Zara “Za-Ra” Izzy said with such enthusiasm, leaning over to Zara for a cuddle. Zara clinging on tight, stroking the little girls hair and kissing her cheek. “Hello my little princess, you’ve grown so big” Zara replied trying to hide her sadness from Izzy “I love you Zawa” Izzy said whilst giving Zara a kiss “Why you so sad, your eyes sore and red, you poorly” she asked inquisitively “Izzy, Zara doesn’t feel well that’s why we have to go to the hospital, you, me and daddy. But it’s all going to be okay because I have you and your daddy who is the best” Zara at this point started sobbing again, clinging to Izzy tighter. Izzy almost sensing that it was something wrong with Zara’s stomach area, as she nestled her head into it and kissed it “I love you Izzy” Zara replied
Daniel came back through from the kitchen; Zara could tell he had been crying and his eyes were swollen. She thought to herself whatever had happened before she would just have to let that go, she needed Daniel now, more than ever. Daniel walked over to the cute scene between Izzy and Zara; he sat next to Zara and pulled her in tight. “Everything is all ready for when we want to go; I’ll be here don’t worry” Daniel trying to reassure Zara but also himself. “I just want to sit here for five minutes Daniel, pretend everything is alright, that im still pregnant, we are together and Izzy is our child” Zara knew she sounded desperate and slightly crazy, but at that moment Daniel started to cry in front of her, quickly trying to retain a strong and stiff upper lip. “Zara we are together if that’s what you want, because I want it so badly and I love you, I love you so very much, I always have I just didn’t know it till now, and Izzy is our child, she loves you like a mummy and with Lisa doing a disappearing act she needs you to be her mummy. Zara there could be a slight chance we still are pregnant, this baby a fighter, but if not the baby is in a better place being looked after by your mummy and we can try for another baby, I promise, I will do anything” Daniel pulled Zara in and kissed her lips “This is not the end, its broken but we can fix this, please believe me” Zara was taken aback by what Daniel had just said, he was not a man to show or talk about his feelings, but she believed every word he said and unsure about what to say back simply replying with “I love you”
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Post by bec2010 on Apr 21, 2011 9:43:45 GMT 1
Daniel, Zara and Izzy got into the car and Zara was still visibly shaking. “Come on Z, keep strong” Daniel uttered almost reassuring himself, he rubbed her leg and held her hand “Okay miss little princess, im going to drop you off at auntie Julia’s and you can play there for a while” Daniel tried to sound enthusiastic and trying to force a smile towards Izzy “NO. NOT GOING. I WANT ZAWA. ZAWA NOT WELL. IZZY MAKE ZAWA BETTER” Izzy herself panicking and couldn’t understand what was going on, why Zara had told her she was going to the hospital and daddy was saying auntie Julia’s “Come on princess, im going to be fine! I promise! But I need you to go to auntie Julia’s and have a fun day playing, I promise when we come back and come home to our house, we will draw pictures and we can have chocolate” Zara replied, it was clear to Daniel that Zara had changed she wanted more than anything to become a mummy and had developed such a mothering personality. “Okay” Izzy replied looking rather down Daniel pulled up outside of Julia’s house, Julia already standing at the front door, she must have been one of the people Daniel had phoned. She took Izzy with one arm and hugged Daniel with the other. “Im so sorry Daniel, for you both” Julia rubbed his arm “But come on Izzy your coming to play with Auntie Julia” Daniel walked back to the car, climbed in and leant over towards Zara, taking her in his arms “Zara, I love you, we can do this, we can do anything, please just stay strong” Zara Could manage nothing more than a nod and started crying again “Daniel ive got a pain, can we just please get to the hospital” Zara sobbed Daniel drove as fast as he could to the hospital, he and Zara in silence and each holding each other’s hand.
Daniel pulled up to the staff entrance at the back of the hospital and dumped the car in a car parking space; he picked Zara up and walked towards the doors, there greeted by Dr Nick Burgfield, the specialist gynaecologist. “Thanks Nick” Daniel shook the doctors hand They walked down a short corridor and into an office, much like one of their own “Okay so you have been experiencing severe cramps and heavy bleeding, your foetus roughly 8/9 weeks old and you have fibroids, reading from your notes” Dr Nick looking directly at Zara and all she could managed was a nod. “Right Daniel did you say you had already gave her in internal and the cervix was open” Nick asked “Yeah, I think so” Daniel looking to the floor his head in his hands “Right Zara I just want you to lie on this couch and tilt your pelvis up, I’ll give you a pillow to put underneath and I’ll just check it to make sure” Nick was trying to sound as professional as he could, but Daniel had been a friend for many of years and he had never seen him this upset before. Nick performed the internal “Im really sorry, but you’re having a miscarriage Zara, your cervix is open and there is nothing I can do to prevent it” Daniel stood up from his seat and sat on the couch next to Zara, cuddling her tight, kissing her forehead and kept repeating how sorry he was. “But we need to run a few more tests, we need to check if you have had a complete or an incomplete miscarriage, im not going to insult your intelligence as doctors but if the tissue is still in the womb. So we will need to take a blood and urine sample, plus we will need to perform an ultrasound scan” Nick replied “I’ll leave you both alone for a moment, just while I go and get a blood kit and the ultrasound machine”
Zara looked at Daniel, and burst out crying “Daniel im sorry” she sobbed barley able to breathe “Zara it’s okay, it’s not your fault, and we will get through this! I love you” Daniel replied, wanting nothing more than to stop this all from happening and to stop her pain. “I love to Daniel more than anything, I always have” Zara replied Daniel pulled Zara into him and cuddled her so tight. Nick re-entered the room “Ive brought you both a drink, Zara im going to need you to drink this as a full bladder will help me see better on the ultrasound” Nick asked He took some blood from her and sent it through the hospital pod system, this would confirm if the pregnancy had been lost or not and he then moved onto the ultrasound scan, Zara could barely watch and covered her eyes” The probe went around on her stomach; Nick looked closely at the screen and pushing different buttons on the screen “Im sorry Zara but you’ve had a complete miscarriage, you will understand what that means, that you have miscarried and none of the foetal tissue is still present within the womb, im ever so sorry. However your fibroid has shrunk and we will prescribe you some medication for that” Zara didn’t know what to say or do instead just curling up into a ball and hiding her face. The bloods came back and they confirmed Zara had had a miscarriage. Both Daniel and Zara visibly devastated Nick left the room and gave Daniel and Zara sometime alone, after which they were free to go as nothing more could be done for the couple. Daniel lay on the couch next to Zara, she cuddled up into him and he couldn’t put his arms around her any tighter “Daniel im sorry, I love you” Zara physically drained and the words came out, barely more than a whisper. “Shh, it’s all okay, don’t worry, im here. Don’t be sorry, it’s not your fault, not your fault at all, I love you to Zara, I love you so much” Daniel replied They both started sobbing together for a little while, Daniel then starting to talk again “We can try again Zara, I promise as soon as your well enough, I will sell the Botox clinic, anything to raise funds for as many IVF cycles as I can, I promise Zara, we will have our biological baby, I promise you that, I’ll try anything and everything! But for the time being we need to grieve this baby we have just lost, help each other physically and emotionally and we have Izzy, she loves you like a mummy and needs you to be her mummy. Zara I love you, we can make it work, and we will have our family I promise you” Daniel got up of the couch and knelt down on the floor. “Zara I hope this shows to you how much you do mean to me and that I will love you and be here for you regardless, so Zara will you marry me?” Daniel asked Zara replied with a simple “Yes” Daniel picked Zara up, her legs around his waist and they cuddled, staying in this position for around five minutes. “Daniel I just want to go to our home, please, I want you and Izzy to come and live in our house and be like a proper family. I just want to go home now, anyway I have promised our little girl that I would draw some pictures with her” “Okay Mrs Granger, we will go home, to our home, the three of us, me you and Izzy” Daniel replied giving Zara a passionate kiss.
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