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What If
Oct 14, 2008 10:53:42 GMT 1
Post by NaomiGemma on Oct 14, 2008 10:53:42 GMT 1
Just in case anyone wondered i deleted my last fic. I didn't like where it was going. So here is a new one. Disclaimer - the characters belong to the BBC and the lyrics belong to R.E.M What If Aged 12 again. Based on George and her feelings about Nick and his death. Usual Characters with maybe a few past ones. Part One. What if… Outside never seemed so dark before. The usual enchantment of it wasn’t there. It was just well intimating. Sitting on the bed she was cold her eyes dry and puffy from crying. Eyeliner and mascara had run down her face watery with her tears. Her usual soft and perfect hair was a knotted mess and wet from the shower. She wasn’t just upset it was anger that filled her mainly. She thumped the bedside table in frustration. Her tears flowing faster than before. “Why Nick!? WHY? Why him? IT’S JUST NOT FA…” She trails off her tears taking over. Her shoulders shake terribly as she turns and lies down on the bed trying to soften the noise of her crying not wishing to disturb Ronnie or Bracken. Suddenly she turns quiet hearing a song playing silent tears continue to fall as the song goes on, “When the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone, When you're sure you've had enough of this life, well hang on Don't let yourself go, 'cause everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes
Sometimes everything is wrong. Now it's time to sing along When your day is night alone, (hold on, hold on) If you feel like letting go, (hold on) When you think you've had too much of this life, well hang on
'Cause everybody hurts. Take comfort in your friends everybody hurts. Don't throw your hand. Oh, no. Don't throw your hand If you feel like you're alone, no, no, no, you are not alone
If you're on your own in this life, the days and nights are long, When you think you've had too much of this life to hang on
Well, everybody hurts sometimes, Everybody cries. And everybody hurts sometimes and everybody hurts sometimes. So, hold on, hold on Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on everybody hurts. You are not alone” Where the song was coming from she didn’t know. It seemed to fit though. She guessed Ronnie was playing it on his Ipod it seemed to fit his taste. All she could think of was what if? What if the accident never happened, or the affair? He wouldn’t have been killed! It’s all her fault. If she hadn’t crashed the car Nick wouldn’t of been out on the street walking! As the song finished her thoughts turned to Julia and everyone else at the mill. They were hurting too because of her! Guilt filled her as did anger more than before. But she had to go on. For Ronnie and Bracken. She just had to.
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What If
Oct 14, 2008 21:54:15 GMT 1
Post by NaomiGemma on Oct 14, 2008 21:54:15 GMT 1
Because I know people will get confused after the--- line it goes back to the night of the crash. Disclaimer - the lyrics are Eric Clampton Part two: -
Her trembling hands pushed open the door and she slowly got out of the car. Closing the door behind her as the cold winter weather hit her like an ice ball she made her way to the small memorial that lay at the front door. Bending down she placed a bunch of flowers as a tear fell she whispered “What if…What if Nick” ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Laughing and dancing she grinned at the drunken man before her, that night started of so well, she walked to him still with a wide smile on her face. He fell into her laughing as he did. It was strange. All she could think was. If only you knew what was to happen. She held him upright as she spoke. “Right you. Everyone else has gone. Why don’t I take you home?” “I’m…I’m fine..” “No you ain’t. Come on I don’t mind” Supporting him around the waist she led him to the car and helped him in. she made sure his seatbelt on and closed the door still smiling despite the nerves building up inside her. Soon she found herself driving the car. Chatting softly to him knowing what he’d soon say. “George…” “Yyeah?” “Y’no…I do love you.” Trying her hardest she kept control of the car managing to avoid that fatal point. She couldn’t help sighing a sigh of relief. “Nick your Drunk. You don’t mean that” “I do! I really doo..” Out the corner of her eye she saw he’d fallen asleep. Sighing once more she got him home and put him to bed. Managing a quick call to Ronnie to say what she was doing. Getting back in the car she turned the radio on Would you know my name If I saw you in heaven Will it be the same If I saw you in heaven I must be strong, and carry on Cause I know I don't belong Here in heaven
Would you hold my hand If I saw you in heaven Would you help me stand If I saw you in heaven I'll find my way, through night and day Cause I know I just can't stay Here in heaven
Time can bring you down Time can bend your knee Time can break your heart Have you begging please Begging please
(instrumental)
Beyond the door There's peace I'm sure. And I know there'll be no more... Tears in heaven
Would you know my name If I saw you in heaven Will it be the same If I saw you in heaven I must be strong, and carry on Cause I know I don't belong Here in heaven
Cause I know I don't belong Here in heaven
Despite that she was back here. She still felt as if she was morning Nick. Tears fell down her face, as she drove home. Not understanding how the hell she ended up back here.
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Post by NaomiGemma on Oct 15, 2008 9:15:04 GMT 1
Disclaimer - the lyrics aren't mine. Part three
Feeling her head thumping as she woke she slowly opened her eyes as she did she found she wasn’t at home. The room was somehow familiar. She turned to see a mirror, she saw herself with her long hair but a badly bruised face. What the hell had happened? Then it hit her she was in hospital! Was Nick Ok? Had it happened anyway? What was going on? She couldn’t remember anything. She heard the door open and the soft footsteps of someone entering. Looking up she saw a hung over Nick. “NICK! You ok? What happened?” “Whoa. Calm down George. I’m fine. I’m so sorry! Don’t you remember?” “Remember what?” “You left me and another car crashed into you.” “What? How are they? So you your perfectly ok?” Slightly confused by her behaviour a concerned Nick answered. “Yeah it was you that got the brunt of it. I’m fine. Don’t worry. Ronnie just went to put Bracken to the babysitter.” She nodded and tried to get up. Which she managed despite a warm rush to her head telling her to sit back down. “No. George! Lie back down. You’ve got a…” “Ouch!” “…Broken leg.” As she sits back down again he continues. “You ok?” “Yeah. Nick. Just give me a hug” Smiling and not aware of how important it was to her that she hugged him. Soon as she touched her she felt those tears running again. Holding tightly she heard someone pass with an ipod on way too loud. He stopped outside her room. It's All Coming Back To Me Now
There were nights when the wind was so cold That my body froze in bed If I just listened to it Right outside the window
There were days when the sun was so cruel That all the tears turned to dust And I just knew my eyes were Drying up forever
I finished crying in the instant that you left And I can't remember where or when or how And I banished every memory you and Ia had ever made
But when you touch me like this And you hold me like that I just have to admit That it's all coming back to me When I touch you like this And I hold you like that It's so hard to believe but It's all coming back to me (It's all coming back, it's all coming back to me now)
There were moments of gold And there were flashes of light There were things I'd never do again But then they'd always seemed right There were nights of endless pleasure It was more than any laws allow Baby Baby
If I kiss you like this And if you whisper like that It was lost long ago But it's all coming back to me If you want me like this And if you need me like that It was dead long ago But it's all coming back to me It's so hard to resist And it's all coming back to me I can barely recall But it's all coming back to me now But it's all coming back
There were those empty threats and hollow lies And whenever you tried to hurt me I just hurt you even worse And so much deeper
There were hours that just went on for days When alone at last we'd count up all the chances That were lost to us forever
But you were history with the slamming of the door And I made myself so strong again somehow And I never wasted any of my time on you since then
But if I touch you like this And if you kiss me like that It was so long ago But it's all coming back to me If you touch me like this And if I kiss you like that It was gone with the wind But it's all coming back to me (It's all coming back, it's all coming back to me now)
There were moments of gold And there were flashes of light There were things we'd never do again But then they'd always seemed right There were nights of endless pleasure It was more than all your laws allow Baby, Baby, Baby
When you touch me like this And when you hold me like that It was gone with the wind But it's all coming back to me When you see me like this And when I see you like that Then we see what we want to see All coming back to me The flesh and the fantasies All coming back to me I can barely recall But it's all coming back to me now
If you forgive me all this If I forgive you all that We forgive and forget And it's all coming back to me When you see me like this And when I see you like that We see just what we want to see All coming back to me The flesh and the fantasies All coming back to me I can barely recall but it's all coming back to me now
(It's all coming back to me now) And when you kiss me like this (It's all coming back to me now) And when I touch you like that (It's all coming back to me now) If you do it like this (It's all coming back to me now) And if we, , ,
Looking at Nick as he looked back confused she just held onto him remembering the good times. And not wanting to let go.
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What If
Oct 16, 2008 20:36:48 GMT 1
Post by NaomiGemma on Oct 16, 2008 20:36:48 GMT 1
(incase you didn't notice it ) Again the Lyrics are not mine! Part four Letting go she smiled at Nick. Closing her eyes she pushed her hair away then re-opened her eyes to find herself somewhere different. She was at work. Turning to the mirror her hair was still long. She looked at her computer and saw the date. It was the day of her affair. Standing up she opened the door and walked outside Nicks Room. Nervously she knocked on the door and opened it on hearing a cheery “Come in!” from Nick. Smiling as she saw him he looked so different that he did in “Reality” that day. “Hey Nick! How are you?” “George. Hey. I’m good. Your Ok?” “Aye. I’m good.” Walking over to him she hugged him just glad he was okay. Smiling and holding her Nick obviously confused by her actions questioned her. “You sure your ok?” “Yeah! Just glad your ok!” Grinning with a hint of mischief in his eyes he looked up at her. “Wanna have a bit of fun?” “Like what?” She replied grinning also. “Oh Just a prank on someone.” He said laughing. “Ohh. You have my attention.” She said back with a cheeky grin. ”Well…Donna is driving me mad! Fire Drills here and there! Lets get her back” “Ohh you are in a cheeky mood! What do you have in mind?” Joking about so unlike what really happened that day. Or rather what happened the first time anyway. The pair of them soon ended up in Julia’s office like a pair of naughty school kids. Giggling still the pair sat in her office their hands at their laps trying to look innocent as Julia came in. “What has got into you two today?” “Nothing Miss!” This of course sent George into another fit of the giggles. “George! The pair of you have been terrorising everyone.” “It’s only Christmas sprit Miss” Despite her best attempts George’s constant laughing sent Julia laughing. “George! Please…Stop…Laughing…it’s…not…funny…” Hearing the Radio not far away gave Nick another idea. Getting up he took George and winked telling her what to do. Running out of the office the pair of them started singing while laughing. They say we`re young and we don`t know Won`t find out till we grow Well I don`t babay that`s true Cause you got me and baby I got you
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Babe, I got you babe, I got you, babe.
They say our love won`t pay the rent Before it`s earn`d our money`s always spent I guess that`s so, we don`t have a lot But at least i`m sure of all the things we got
(chorus)
Babe, I got you babe, I got you, babe. I got flowers in the spring I got you, to wear my ring And when i`m sad, you`re a clown And when I get scared you`re always around So let them say your hair`s too long I don`t care, with you I can`t do wrong And put your little hand in mine There ain`t no hill or mountain we can`t climb
(chorus)
Babe, I got you babe, I got you, babe.
I got you to hold my hand I got you to understand I got you to walk with me I got you to talk with me I got you to kiss goodnight I got you to hold me tight I got you I won`t let go I got you to love me so I got you, babeJulia just stood shaking her head not getting what had got into them.
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What If
Oct 19, 2008 12:40:27 GMT 1
Post by NaomiGemma on Oct 19, 2008 12:40:27 GMT 1
Very Short post. not that good either. lyrics aren't mine. Part five
Opening her eyes she found herself lying next to Ronnie smiling she kissed him accidentally waking him up. “Oops! Sorry Ronnie.” He just smiles at her before sitting up and deciding to talk. “Ready for the holiday?” Holiday? She thought. Oh it must be the day he found out. Or rather I told him. She smiled knowing the end of today would be different. “Yup! Can’t wait. I’ll get Bracken up.” “George? Don’t you remember? Julia has her.” “Oh aye! Crap forgot.” He just smiles shaking his head. “Time to get up Ronnie! Lazy!” she grins getting up as does Ronnie. He gets up putting on a CD. Then smiles and lip sings to George much to her enjoyment. Life is a moment in space When the dream is gone Its a lonelier place I kiss the morning goodbye But down inside you know We never know why The road is narrow and long When eyes meet eyes And the feeling is strong I turn away from the wall I stumble and fall But I give you it all... Chorus: I am a woman in love And I do anything To get you into my world And hold you within Its a right I defend Over and over again What do I do?
With you eternally mine In love there is No measure of time We planned it all at the start That you and i Would live in each others hearts We may be oceans away You feel my love I hear what you say No truth is ever a lie I stumble and fall But I give you it all Repeat chorus I am a woman in love And Im talking to you Do you know how it feels? What a woman can do Its a right That I defend over and over again...... Laughing she grins and kisses him. “Aww you really a woman in love eh?” “Yup! Of course!” “Just one question.” “What?” “Since when you been a woman?” “About two months now.” This sent her into fits of laughter. It wasn’t his words but rather how convincing he sounded. Kissing him she places her arms around his neck. He moves his hands round her waist. Pushing her back onto the bed. He grins. “Wanna a test run?”
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Post by NaomiGemma on Nov 11, 2008 9:04:22 GMT 1
Second last part. Short again. Once more the lyrics are not mine.
Part 6
Going through the door Vivian stood smiling. It was the day Nick died. Despite trying fear filled George like a glass filled with water she was at the point of overflowing. Forcing a smile she walked through to get some needed coffee. Turing to look at the clock it was 12pm. everyone had gone to lunch well Ronnie herself and Nick were there. Nick having agreed to see another patient was in his room. Ronnie was chatting about some dog he’d seen when a large bang went off and a man ran through. He went straight to George standing just a bit away he pointed the gun; he had fired earlier, at her. Nick ran through. “John!! Stop it! Come on. Please!” “NO! I want the drugs!! Or She gets it!” If it hadn’t been earlier her fear was now defiantly overflowing. Ronnie seemed to be in a state of Shock. Like her tears filled him. John the young boy pulled the trigger ready to shoot. Letting go the shot fired. Nick dives and pushes George away getting hit himself. As John legs it! “Niiiiiiccccccccccckkk!!!!!!!!!!!!” Running to him, still in shock, George checks his pulse. “Nothing! Call an ambulance!!” Trying CPR she knows it won’t work. A bullet in the heart rarely does! Listening out she hears the radio going. Hey There's a hero, If you look inside your heart, You don't have to be afraid of what you are. There's an answer, If you reach into your soul, And the sorrow that you know will melt away. And then a hero comes along, With the strength to carry on, And you cast your fears aside, And you know you can survive. So when you feel that hope is gone, Look inside you and be strong, And you'll finally see the truth, That a hero lies in you. It's a long road, When you face the world along, No one reaches out a hand for you to hold, You can find love, When you search within yourself, And the emptiness you felt will disappear. And then a hero comes along, With the strength to carry on, And you cast your fears aside, And you know you can survive. So when you feel that hope is gone, Look inside you and be strong, And you'll finally see the truth, That a hero lies in you. Oohh Lord knows, Dreams are hard to follow, You don't let anyone take them away, Hold on, There will be tomorrow, In time you'll find the way. And then a hero comes along, With the strength to carry on, And you cast your fears aside, And you know you can survive. So when you feel that hope is gone, Look inside you and be strong, And you'll finally see the truth, That a hero lies in you. That a hero lies in you. Ooh That a hero lies in you.
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