Post by Katrina on May 22, 2005 21:36:06 GMT 1
Note – this is a one-part Tasha Fic. Set just after the episode Birthing Pains (aired on BBC1, March 24th 2005).
it may take a while for new parts of the other fics as I accidentally deleted my files.
Yesterday
I admit I wasn’t thrilled when I found out about your existence. I admit I did think about aborting you. I admit I was going to put you up for adoption but in my heart I knew I would never carry this out. At night I dreamt about cradling you in my arms. I dreamt about hearing your first word. I dreamt about watching you take your first shaky steps. Yesterday you were growing inside of me. Yesterday you were inside of me living off me. Yesterday you were real. But that was then, we can’t go back,
Today
The pain was unbearable. It wasn’t the physical pain it was the mental pain. I knew that I was losing you. If only I hadn’t stayed behind to argue. If only I’d left with everyone else. Then you’d still be with me. I don’t want to cry. All I feel is empty like there’s nothing in me any more. Its like when they took you out, they took everything else. All I can think about is you. All I can see is you, but that’s wrong I never saw you did I? I wasn’t given that chance. You were stolen from me. I don’t want to go on without you. But I have to. I can’t go back and I can’t stay here. I have to go on,
Tomorrow
Tomorrows another day. Who came up with that saying? It means nothing, when tomorrow comes the pain of what happened yesterday doesn’t disappear, it doesn’t change. You’ve still left me and no matter how many tomorrow’s come you won’t ever return. They expect me to go back to work in Riverside but how can I? It was here that I lost you. I can’t help other people here when all I can think about is how I lost you. But even if I leave, the pain will follow me. Nothing will ever take that pain away. No matter where I am. Maybe the pain will go away when tomorrow comes but tomorrow never comes does? The pain will never go, you will never come back and my heart will be forever broken.
it may take a while for new parts of the other fics as I accidentally deleted my files.
Yesterday
I admit I wasn’t thrilled when I found out about your existence. I admit I did think about aborting you. I admit I was going to put you up for adoption but in my heart I knew I would never carry this out. At night I dreamt about cradling you in my arms. I dreamt about hearing your first word. I dreamt about watching you take your first shaky steps. Yesterday you were growing inside of me. Yesterday you were inside of me living off me. Yesterday you were real. But that was then, we can’t go back,
Today
The pain was unbearable. It wasn’t the physical pain it was the mental pain. I knew that I was losing you. If only I hadn’t stayed behind to argue. If only I’d left with everyone else. Then you’d still be with me. I don’t want to cry. All I feel is empty like there’s nothing in me any more. Its like when they took you out, they took everything else. All I can think about is you. All I can see is you, but that’s wrong I never saw you did I? I wasn’t given that chance. You were stolen from me. I don’t want to go on without you. But I have to. I can’t go back and I can’t stay here. I have to go on,
Tomorrow
Tomorrows another day. Who came up with that saying? It means nothing, when tomorrow comes the pain of what happened yesterday doesn’t disappear, it doesn’t change. You’ve still left me and no matter how many tomorrow’s come you won’t ever return. They expect me to go back to work in Riverside but how can I? It was here that I lost you. I can’t help other people here when all I can think about is how I lost you. But even if I leave, the pain will follow me. Nothing will ever take that pain away. No matter where I am. Maybe the pain will go away when tomorrow comes but tomorrow never comes does? The pain will never go, you will never come back and my heart will be forever broken.