Post by Katrina on Jan 19, 2008 20:38:44 GMT 1
I really hope this fic is ok as I haven't really written anything in this sort of style before. I'm not to sure how many parts there are going to be to this.
Part 1
March 25th 2008
Dearest Bracken,
It has been exactly two months since your daddy took you. I miss you so much it hurts to breath. Have you learnt new words? Have you developed new skills? I wish for nothing more than to hold you in my arms.
Two months is the longest I’ve ever been separated from you. Each minute seems to stretch an eternity. Every time my telephone rings or I hear the doorbell my heart skips a beat hoping it is you being returned to me. The disappointment it so hard to bear.
I have to go now darling but remember I love you more than life itself and I miss you more than anything.
Love you always
Mummy
March 15th 2008
Dearest Bracken,
Today I had some news. News I am not sure how to deal with. Has your daddy told you what happened? I guess he’s told you that you cannot see me anymore but has he said why?
I will tell you that truth now. I made a mistake. A few months before you turned two years old I was involved in an accident. I was driving the car and I swerved hitting a skip. I wasn’t hurt but a good friend of mine was. The accident left him in a wheelchair. I felt so guilty. Anyway he’d always had feelings for me and so a few days after your birthday we got drunk and things happened. But you must understand that it was a mistake no matter what your daddy tells you.
I’ve regretted it from the moment it happened. The instant it happened I changed in to a person I don’t know a person I hate. I hurt so many people. Nick believed because I’d slept with him I felt the same and that I would leave your daddy for him. Your daddy hated me for what I did. I hated seeing that look in his eyes when I told him. That will haunt me forever.
Everything has changed now. I no longer have the most important people in my life; my friends have turned against me. And now I am pregnant and worst of all I don’t know whether or not your daddy or nick is the father.
I don’t know what I’m going to do.
Love you always
Mummy
April 11th 2008
Dearest Bracken
It has been almost four months since you left and almost a month since I wrote last. It isn’t because I don’t love you or I don’t think about you in fact it is the opposite. I find it so hard to write to you and yet it is strangely comforting.
I think I have been in denial. I’ve been trying to ignore everything that has been happening. The fact my abdomen is slowly swelling, the fact I haven’t seen you for so long, the fact that I slept with another man. I’ve barely left your Auntie Julia’s house. She’s been looking after me, mothering me. Some days she’s had to practically force food down my throat, she’s sat up with me as I’ve cried myself to sleep. She’s been covering for me at the surgery, telling them I’m ill but they know the truth. They know that I cheated on my husband, they know I’m pregnant and don’t know who the father is, they know I’m a broken woman.
I know that you are fine but I cannot help but worrying about you. I know your daddy will look after you but I long to be there to protect you.
Love you always
Mummy
Part 1
March 25th 2008
Dearest Bracken,
It has been exactly two months since your daddy took you. I miss you so much it hurts to breath. Have you learnt new words? Have you developed new skills? I wish for nothing more than to hold you in my arms.
Two months is the longest I’ve ever been separated from you. Each minute seems to stretch an eternity. Every time my telephone rings or I hear the doorbell my heart skips a beat hoping it is you being returned to me. The disappointment it so hard to bear.
I have to go now darling but remember I love you more than life itself and I miss you more than anything.
Love you always
Mummy
March 15th 2008
Dearest Bracken,
Today I had some news. News I am not sure how to deal with. Has your daddy told you what happened? I guess he’s told you that you cannot see me anymore but has he said why?
I will tell you that truth now. I made a mistake. A few months before you turned two years old I was involved in an accident. I was driving the car and I swerved hitting a skip. I wasn’t hurt but a good friend of mine was. The accident left him in a wheelchair. I felt so guilty. Anyway he’d always had feelings for me and so a few days after your birthday we got drunk and things happened. But you must understand that it was a mistake no matter what your daddy tells you.
I’ve regretted it from the moment it happened. The instant it happened I changed in to a person I don’t know a person I hate. I hurt so many people. Nick believed because I’d slept with him I felt the same and that I would leave your daddy for him. Your daddy hated me for what I did. I hated seeing that look in his eyes when I told him. That will haunt me forever.
Everything has changed now. I no longer have the most important people in my life; my friends have turned against me. And now I am pregnant and worst of all I don’t know whether or not your daddy or nick is the father.
I don’t know what I’m going to do.
Love you always
Mummy
April 11th 2008
Dearest Bracken
It has been almost four months since you left and almost a month since I wrote last. It isn’t because I don’t love you or I don’t think about you in fact it is the opposite. I find it so hard to write to you and yet it is strangely comforting.
I think I have been in denial. I’ve been trying to ignore everything that has been happening. The fact my abdomen is slowly swelling, the fact I haven’t seen you for so long, the fact that I slept with another man. I’ve barely left your Auntie Julia’s house. She’s been looking after me, mothering me. Some days she’s had to practically force food down my throat, she’s sat up with me as I’ve cried myself to sleep. She’s been covering for me at the surgery, telling them I’m ill but they know the truth. They know that I cheated on my husband, they know I’m pregnant and don’t know who the father is, they know I’m a broken woman.
I know that you are fine but I cannot help but worrying about you. I know your daddy will look after you but I long to be there to protect you.
Love you always
Mummy