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Post by bec2010 on Jul 19, 2011 20:24:09 GMT 1
Pre the start of the fan fiction Zara and Daniel tried for the second round of IVF and found they were pregnant, much to each other’s delight and could not wait to be parents. Despite a few hick ups and both having moments of doubt, Zara’s 12 week scan confirmed that this was what they both wanted, seeing that blob transform into a baby was sheer delight for both of them. However at 14 weeks Zara miscarried the baby and since then she and Daniel have being having a hard time as a couple with neither being able to talk about it. The only people that knew they were having a child were Julia, Mrs Tembe and Jimmi. ............................................................
Zara couldn’t sleep, she wasn’t sure if it was Daniels constant tossing and turning or the fact that everything was playing on her mind, baby G would have been 16 weeks today and these past 2 weeks had been hell. She expected that once she had gone through the hard part of getting pregnant, the pregnancy would be plain sailing and within 9 months she would have a beautiful baby in her arms, how further could she have been from the truth. She played the scenario over and over again in her head, her routine midwife check and it was there she was told her baby had died, she was on her own at the time and didn’t have her professional manor to protect her, this was her baby, not just a patient so that front seemed to fail her. She clutched her little bump and begged that they didn’t remove the foetus inside of her. Possibly telling Daniel was the hardest thing, he was so proud and pleased to be becoming a dad again, he was at Zara’s beck and call, anything she or the baby wanted he got her it and couldn’t stop rubbing or talking to the bump. She had to tell him at work, her appointment was only meant to be routine so she went in her lunch hour, and Daniel fell to the floor, started sobbing and buried his head in his hands, before finally getting up and hugging Zara, not wanting to let her go.
She decided that if it was 5:40am now and if she had to be up at 6, there was no point in even trying to go back to sleep. She walked downstairs and made herself a coffee, she could have as much of this caffeine stuff now that she wasn’t pregnant and that was how she had survived these past two weeks, just living off caffeine. Sitting down on the kitchen table, she buried herself into another world and sat and stared into thin air.
The alarm started buzzing it was 6am, Daniel not wanting to get up slammed his hand down on the top of the alarm clock and reached out in the bed for Zara but she wasn’t there, this wasn’t uncommon. Of late he cannot even remember the last time they shared a full night’s sleep together, they hardly did anything together anymore until the anger and the heartbreak became too much, the ended by having an argument together or sex, as it was one way to release all the emotion and for one moment pretend that they were okay as a couple, until the next time. Daniel lifted the duvet back and stood up from the bed; he put on a pair of jogging bottoms and walked downstairs. He watched Zara from the kitchen door; stir her coffee over and over again whilst staring into thin air, if he could take this pain away he would do it in a heartbeat, this wasn’t the Zara he loved nor liked, he detested this women she had become. “Zara, im just going to go for a run, have you seen my hoodie” Daniel asked Zara got a bit of a fright and started on the defensive “Have you been standing watching me, your such a joke, me seen your hoodie, well I haven’t been wearing it, im not your wife I don’t do your washing, why don’t you go back to Lisa, bet she did your washing, Daniel get out and go for a run, I really don’t want to see you” Zara burst out crying and ran upstairs Daniel knew when Zara was like this, it was best just to leave her cause she wouldn’t talk about it all anyway. He decided even thought it was freezing just to wear a t-shirt and headed for the door, he started running and the cool air seemed to clear his mind, he ran all the way along and around the park and then back home. He dreaded going back in and facing another torrent of abuse of Zara, putting his key in the lock, he opened the door. The house was silent so he headed upstairs, he had just enough time for a shower, to get ready and breakfast before work, and he figured Zara herself must have gone for a run or a walk to clear her head or that she had gone to work way too early. He opened the bedroom door and that was when he found her, sitting on the floor clutching a baby grow and crying “Our baby should have worn this Daniel, our baby” She said through heartfelt sobs and the pain in her eyes was apparent. Daniel knelt next to her and pulled her in, hugging her and kissing her head, she kept repeating I’m sorry over and over again and he kept trying to soothe her with the words of its okay. She looked up at him and he looked down at her, they kissed each other and with each gentle kiss it became more passionate before he gently lifted her up onto the bed, they made love, something they hadn’t done since before they lost the baby the other times it was only was a quick bit of sex, no passion involved and it was more of a release than a way of connecting themselves. They hadn’t left themselves much time to get ready and quickly hurried off to the Mill.
Zara didn’t have any patients till half ten so she decided to get ahead with some paper work, at that moment there was a knock on her door. “Come in” she shouted “Dr Carmichael, ive brought you a cup of coffee I know how you like it, 2 spoons full of coffee, no sugar and black” Mrs Tembe replied “Thank you, you’re a star” Zara smiled back “I do hope you have taken my advice from our chat on Friday and have had a good chat with Dr Granger, you locking all your emotions away isn’t going to help Zara, you must understand that” “I know Mrs Tembe, but it’s hard, I don’t even know what I think yet be able to explain it to another person, it’s just all happened so fast and from such a high to a low” Zara started crying and Mrs Tembe gave her a cuddle and pulled her close in “Zara I really did have the wrong impression of you when I first started but I tell you one thing, it is amazing what you learn when you really get to know a person, but please go and speak to Daniel, after Mrs Morris is finished he doesn’t have another patient till half ten, that gives you half an hour to clear a little bit of air, promise me?” Zara wiped the tears from her face “I promise, and thank you”
Daniel had already had an awful morning and it was only quarter to ten, his first patient Mrs Morris, reminded him a lot of Zara, a very strong and bold woman but she was a sarcastic and full of her self bitch, things Zara were not, well to him. She was 34 year old, married woman, her husband was a director who Daniel used to play golf with and well it turns out Mrs Morris has been having an affair with her gardener and is now to her much surprise 19 weeks pregnant and wants an abortion. He was getting himself angry just thinking about the situation, why was It he and Zara who couldn’t have a child but she could, he never usually let a patient get to him this much, but she had really got under his skin. He really wanted to say no! You cannot have an abortion but in the end he only agreed for the sake of her poor unborn child. He really wanted to just walk out and walk, try to clear his head but he had a lot to do. At that moment he heard a knock at his door. “Come in for god’s sake, but be quick, im busy” He snapped back Zara sheepishly opened the door, and gave a weak smile “Everything okay” “Zara does it look as if im okay, no im not okay if you must know! What do you want?” Zara burst into tears “I’ll just leave, sorry I even opened my mouth” “No you’re not leaving you obviously came in here for something so just say it” Daniel demanded “Daniel leave it, I’ll just go” Zara went to walk out Daniel followed after her “Zara, im sorry what did you want” “Daniel just leave it, I’ll talk to you later” “Don’t bother Zara, don’t bother at all, Im not in the mood for talking later” He walking away, and into the general direction of reception.
Daniel was now standing where they kept the notes and Zara followed him, the reception was busy with staff but no patients were around. “Daniel what the flip is wrong with you” Zara demanded “Zara leave it” Daniel had raised his voice at this point so it had attracted a few stares from Karen. “Daniel don’t do this to me, please don’t” Zara could feel her voice trembling “Don’t do what, Zara you have got on my back for the last two weeks, we all know it’s been hard for you Zara but it’s been hard for me too” Daniel sniped back, now the pair were in a full blown row for all to here. “It’s been hard Daniel, It’s been hard, it’s been more than hard, I’ve lost a baby Daniel, I’ve lost our baby, our perfect little 14 week old baby, that was a fully formed baby. And you’re telling me it’s hard for you, you’re not the one who still has all the pregnancy hormones, the one who still has the signs of a small bump nor the one who had to have the baby removed are you Daniel, are you” Zara was now shouting very loud, and everyone was taken back at the fact that Zara had been pregnant. “No Zara, I’m not and if I could change it I would, but it’s not fair that we cannot have a baby and some people use abortion as a form of contraception is it? But from your semi speech I understand your true feelings Zara, that it’s all about you, a baby needs a mum and a dad, that’s right a dad so you know what Zara, it’s over, were over, I love you and I would die for you, but nothing is ever going to be the same ever again, so it’s easier if we just end it here. My stuff will have gone by the time you get home” and with that Daniel bolted for the door and sped off in his car.
Zara burst into tears and sunk to the ground, Mrs Tembe and Julia walked over to her and put their arms around her to pick her up “I’ve lost my baby and now I’ve lost my man, I’ve got nothing, I really just want to die” Zara sobbed through a flood of tears.
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Post by bec2010 on Jul 19, 2011 21:53:18 GMT 1
“Mrs Tembe” Zara started “Zara call me Winifred” Mrs Tembe finished Neither thought either would like each other nor become friends yet here they were becoming good friends. “Okay Winifred, what am I going to do? Daniel, well I know a lot of people have a lot of opinions about Daniel but I love him, and that’s the truth. I wake up next to him every morning and smile, smile that he is mine and I thought nothing could change that. He makes me feel loved, wanted and safe, no other man has ever made me feel this way. You really don’t want to know this but sex with every other man was a way for me to gain a bit of instant pleasure and just a way of playing them, and in the beginning that’s how me and Daniel started but I even knew from then, that I couldn’t do that to him, no matter how hard I tried, not deep down. I don’t believe in marriage, I think it’s just a front, you do it because you want other people to notice and it’s a way of conning people out of marriage but if I ever changed my mind the only person I would ever marry would be Daniel, ah honestly he’s got me like a soppy teenager. The only man ive ever wanted children with; we tried twice, the first time the egg didn’t attach, that was hard enough but the second time, well as you know we lost our bundle of joy and that was even harder, I cannot cope and if he leaves me for good, I cannot cope at all on my own” Zara felt that a huge weight had been lifted off her chest after this revelation. However it also felt a huge shock, what happened if Daniel did really leave her. “Look Zara, you and he need to set a private place and time, and you need to talk this all through” Mrs Tembe advised.
It didn’t take a genius to work out where Julia would find Daniel, the local casino. She knew in times of despair and when there was no way out an addict would always turn to their roots. Daniel was still sitting in his car; Julia pulled up alongside his car and got out. She tapped on the passenger window and he opened the car door. “I hadn’t been in yet, if that’s what your worried about” Daniel muttered looking straight ahead, giving Julia no eye contact. “Daniel I don’t care if you’ve blown every penny you’ve got, I care about you and Zara. Neither of you are coping very well and it’s the happiest ive both seen you two being together, so im not going to let you give that up” Julia was stern with her words “Its for the best Julia, for me and her not to be together, I cannot even give her a child and she doesn’t believe in marriage so we’ve reached the end of the line, it would only cause more hurt going back. I love her, love her so much, I would do anything for her. I go to bed with a smile on my face every night cause I get to sleep with her, the love of my life, and a woman most men would kill for. Julia I really don’t know, our baby is dead Julia and I don’t know if that means the end of our relationship, she doesn’t talk, I don’t talk, we never spend any time together anymore. I really don’t think she’s going to take me back nor do I think it will ever be the same again. Julia my heart is breaking” and with that Daniel started sobbing, he and Julia hugged like mother and son “Daniel you will know non of these things unless you sit down and talk it out with her, like adults, be honest and that’s all you can ask of each other. Now come on your going to talk to Zara”
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Post by bec2010 on Jul 20, 2011 14:57:26 GMT 1
Mrs Tembe had called a taxi for Zara to go home and Julia had drove Daniel back home. They both pulled up outside of the house at the same time, both looking at each other and sobbing. Zara walked to the door and opened it, Daniel slowly followed her into the house. “Do you want a coffee” Zara asked “Um” Daniel replied with the small utterance and a nod of his dead He walked into the living room and sat down on the settee, he kept rubbing his face and fidgeting, you could tell he was nervous. Zara walked in about 5 minutes later with two coffees and a plate of biscuits. She handed Daniel his coffee and put the plate of biscuits on the table. “Biscuit?” She asked, putting on a rather strange accent Daniel laughed “No thanks you don’t get a body like mine with Biscuits” Zara chuckled back “Its times like this I’ve missed, being close and having a laugh” Daniel cuddled Zara in “Me too” They sat in silence for 10 minutes, each cuddling up to the other. “Zara, in all seriousness we need to talk” Daniel remained composed “We need to talk about what has happened, about us and our baby” Zara’s face crumpled “Okay” she sobbed “I know it’s hard, but we’ll get through this, I promise” The pair remained in tense conversation for around an hour, both explaining their feelings and how they felt about losing the baby. They laughed, they shared tears and they shouted. “Zara, im not saying it your fault at all, you complete joke, your taking my words and twisting them” Daniel was really shouting now “Look Daniel, this baby has killed our relationship. I love you and you love me, but we cannot make this work, we don’t like each other anymore, we share nothing. It’s like living with a complete stranger. So yes I think you’re right, we’re over as a couple! But Daniel please don’t leave me, please don’t leave like this, just let us still live together, be friends cause I need you” Zara fell back on the settee and started crying “Zara you daft woman, ive been saying this for the last half an hour, but you just haven’t listened, we’re ruining each other being in this relationship and we should just be friends! Of course im not going to leave you, I cannot leave you, you’re my best friend in the whole wide world and I love you so much” Daniel and Zara had reached a compromise, they were just going to try and be friends. “Zara but please you’re a beautiful woman, go out there and have fun, what we had was amazing, but I think we both know we cannot go back” Daniel had raised the question “You too Daniel” Zara sobbed, although she had finalised the split, nothing more hurt that splitting from the love of her life and then he telling her to move on.
Daniel had slept in the spare room last night, Zara had walked in the room carrying Daniel a coffee and climbed into the bed next to him “Can I just have a hug” “Of course” Daniel pulled her in close and the pair snuggled down in the duvet. Daniel really felt that this was playing with his head, did she want him as a friend or as a lover again. This wasn’t going to work; he decided that since it was his morning off he would move all his stuff into Kevin’s. It was better for them to be friends and apart, even though he promised her last night he wouldn’t leave, he had to, and else it was just going to play with both of their heads. “Zara” She looked up at him, and for a minute she looked like the old Zara, funny thing to say, but it made Daniels heart strings tug and he leant down and kissed her. She broke away “Daniel, I thought we were just friends, not saying that I don’t want you, but its playing with my head Daniel” Daniel took a few minutes to reply “Zara I know I promised you i wouldn’t leave, but were always going to be in this limbo if we don’t move on and move out” Zara realised this and still felt saddened by the idea, she lifted the duvet back and climbed out “Okay Daniel, im going to get ready, do whatever” she said trying to play it cool.
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Post by bec2010 on Jul 21, 2011 9:20:04 GMT 1
Really don't know if anyone is reading this!? But anyway I'm going to carry on writing it. Sorry its such a little update and by far this is not the end!!! So i will post another longer update tomorrow!
Daniel had spent his morning, packing boxes and putting clothes in bags ready to move into Kevin’s, upon packing the last items, he found the 12 week scan photo and started talking to it. “You were the best and worst thing that happened to Mummy and Daddy but I wouldn’t change you for the world” Daniel gently stroked the photo “My, our beautiful little baby” He started loading the bags and boxes into his car, he looked back on Zara’s house, this wasn’t just her house, and it was their home. He loved Zara so much, they had been together-is nearly three years and he wished they could have been together for the rest of his life. She pulled up in her car just as he was about to leave “You’ve finally got your space back and the biggest bonus is that Rupert has gone” Daniel joked Zara started laughing and hugged Daniel “Im going to miss you” She said “But I won’t miss that bloody dog” “Z, I’m going to miss you too but it’s for the best, and like we said, we will always be best friends, promise” “Best friends always, but Daniel, you don’t suppose we could just have one last kiss” Zara asked “One last kiss” Daniel lent in and kissed Zara passionately, they both knew that this wasn’t it and if they had worked at it properly they could have saved the relationship but this seemed the best idea for now Both Daniel and Zara pulled away, both had tears running down their face. “See you later Zara, love you best friend” And with that Daniel drove off.
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Post by bec2010 on Jul 24, 2011 9:55:32 GMT 1
It had been about 4 weeks since Daniel and Zara had tried to separate, they were still officially not an item but at every event they had been to since they went together, still went for regular drinks at the Icon and spent a lot of time together. However the past week they had seemed distance from each other and Zara knew why, she had met someone new. It was only by chance and she never intentionally meant to find this person. However she woke up one morning to find that she had no hot water or heating, she called Daniel but he was visiting Izzy so she called a plumper out of the local newspaper. He was called Greg, about 6ft, dark blonde hair and green eyes. They had joked on all morning, he had her helping with the jobs and she had made him several cups of tea. Finally once the job was done they both sat down on the settee “So Zara, are you going to make me lunch” Greg asked “Promise I won’t charge” Zara started to laugh “Well what do you want; I can make you a chicken salad” “Mm sounds perfect, can I have a drink too please, and maybe some crisps and something sweet, normally I wouldn’t cause im totally sweet enough” Greg rattled off “Okay I’ll see what I can do” Zara shouted back She came back into the living room around 10 minutes later, with a chicken salad, a bag of quavers, a cupcake and a can of coke. “Happy” She asked Greg “This is lovely, well done, you know cook a little bit of chicken, chop some tomato, cucumber, onions and add some lettuce leaves, total masterchef” He added being rather sarcastic, however joking. Zara burst out laughing “Well for that comment you can leave and I’ll eat my masterchef delights” Zara and Greg sat on the settee watching This Morning for around ten minutes, after which both had eaten their indoor picnic and Greg got up to leave. “Well Zara it’s been lovely meeting you, probably the best working morning I’ve had for ages, so this shout have been a £200 job but one condition, if you agree to go on a date with me, it’s for free” Zara added defensively “I can pay for it, im not poor! But I like you, so yes a date sounds nice” “Great” Greg replied “Right well anything you want to do, you have my mobile number, I can make any night and anytime, just for you” Greg was normally a man who would have drove her crazy with his sense of humour but at this moment in time it seemed a real tonic.
Daniel drove back to Zara’s later that nice and was very apologetic that he couldn’t help with her heating and Zara insisted that it was fine, somebody fixed it and not to worry. Daniel had brought in with him an Indian takeaway, so they sat on the sofa eating that whilst watching several episodes of Luther. Once they had finished, Daniel cleared and washed the plates, coming back to lie on the settee with Zara. They lay on the sofa watching some trashy film; Daniel had his arms wrapped around Zara and it all felt very much as if they were a couple. It was getting late, Daniel suggest he leave but Zara asked him to stay, who said anything was going to happen between her and Greg she was doing nothing wrong, she was a single woman. Daniel of course stayed and this wasn’t for the first time, he stayed in her bed. She was going to have to tell him, but she would tell him after the date if everything went well, because for the moment she felt very safe with his arms around her.
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Post by bec2010 on Jul 24, 2011 22:45:37 GMT 1
The date did go well, he took her to the local Chinese restaurant and for a few drinks, Greg was totally not Zara’s type, he was your average Joe, a working guy from a working class background but he had totally took her by surprise, she was starting to really like him, but, as much as she tried it never seemed to go any further than a kiss as it didn’t feel right that it was Daniel but it was early stages as they had only been dating for two weeks. They had done normal couple things such as going to the pictures and take a walk in the park, things her and Daniel seemed to take for granted. He didn’t buy her expensive gifts unlike Daniel but he was romantic and he tried his best, the only problem was that Zara still hadn’t told Daniel. She and Daniel had been spending a little less time apart, and she figured that he would have an inclination that something was going on but for now she was going to enjoy her night out with Ruth who was home from Boston. Ruth and Zara had decided to have a nice in with several bottles of wine and a good catch up. They talked for hours about Daniel, the baby, Ruth’s boyfriend and her troubles, after three hours all 4 of the bottles of wine were gone and Zara and Ruth were totally plastered. “I love him, I totally love him, more than anything, but I don’t know we’ve just lost it and well I’ve met Greg and he’s like my best friend, oh Ruthie what do I do” Zara was swinging her wine glass around and trying to get up from the settee and move across to hug Ruth, however every attempt resulted in her falling back down “Stuff men Zara; let’s just get wasted all of the time! You’re the best friend ever” Ruth replied through several hiccups “Ruth but what do I do” Zara was shouting and leaning up against the sofa, kind of slumped against the wall “What do I do, I think I love them both, or maybe just Daniel, Greg he’s lovely, ah I really don’t know, but I do know something lets have some of Mr Sambuca” Zara was giggling and fell to the floor “Zara” Ruth was concerned but couldn’t keep standing up herself “Im fine, come on Sambuca, Sambuca S-AM-BU-C-A” Zara was giggling and trying to scramble up “Zara I think we’ve had enough I feel sick” Ruth did not want to do Sambuca, anything but Sambuca. “You’re boring me, Ruthie! I want to see Daniel, ring Daniel get him over, yes, that’s right, its Daniel I want, I love Daniel, but no, no, Greg, ring Greg, actually no, I don’t want to see him like this cause I like him and well me and Daniel we’ll never work but ring Daniel he’ll be up for a party” Zara was drunkenly rambling on. By this point Ruth was slumped near the settee, very out of it and very drunk “Ruth get up else I’m going to Daniels” Zara shouted “Come on Ruth” “Mm, whatever, go” Ruth was asleep on the floor and muttered a little “See you boring party girl later” and with that Zara called for a taxi and scrambled a few things together, put a different dress on and some make up. The taxi arrived 5 minutes later and she nearly fell into it, she remembered Daniel’s right address after a couple of attempts, who cared that it was 4am, it was still Saturday night in her head, the weekend and if she woke Kevin, she woke Kevin, she wanted to see her Daniel. The taxi pulled up outside of the Kevin’s flat, both Daniels and Kevin’s cars were on the drive, she scrambled up to the door and started banging her fist heavily against it “Daniel, Daniel, Sweetie! Open the door, now!” She was shouting very loud and a light flickered on upstairs, Kevin poked his head out of the bedroom window and a girl had her head alongside his. “Zara, bloody hell, its after 4am, what do you want” Kevin demanded “Shut up skivvy boy and go and get Daniel, I want Daniel, run along” Zara shouted back Kevin tutted “I really don’t know what’s going on between you two but it’s pretty messed up” The light in the other room flicked on and heavy footprints pounded down the stairs, the hall light went on and Daniel opened the door. “Hello you” Zara lent forward and kissed Daniel; she pushed him into the house and shut the front door behind him. She pushed him up against the wall and tried to kiss him again “Zara not here and not now, come upstairs, stop making a fool of yourself, we need to talk” Daniel picked her up and carried her upstairs They went into Daniels room and he placed her down on the bed, she didn’t want to let go and tried to pull him on top of her “Zara No, your messing with my head, your messing with you own head and your messing with Greg’s head” Daniel put emphasis on Greg.
“How do you know about Greg, and there is nothing between me and Greg, just a few dates, you were the one who told me to move on Daniel” Zara added “Yes move on but not keep us stringing both along at the same time, so what’s it been, sleep with Greg 5 nights a week and two nights a week with me, eh, Zara is this how you’ve worked it” Daniel was shouting. “No Daniel, ive never slept with him, I tried and I couldn’t, he isn’t, well, Daniel, he isn’t you and sleeping with anyone but you Daniel is wrong” Zara admitted Daniel felt taken aback by this statement, his cold heart in which he learnt Zara had moved on had started to warm to her, she really did mean what she had just said, but why didn’t she tell him straight about Greg, so moved straight back to the defensive. “That’s nice Zara, try and sleep with Greg, if you loved me you wouldn’t have done it at all, Zara in the eight weeks we’ve been split up ive slept with and spent no other time with anyone but you, you, because I love you and that’s what love does” Zara started crying “Im sorry Daniel, I like Greg, he’s lovely but he’s just my good friend, Daniel your my best friend, my boyfriend and my babies dad, you mean so much more, please, please come back” “Is this your attempt to try and soften my mood for a quick bunk up because you’re off your face and it all becomes too much? Not the first this time this has happened Z, is it? “Daniel please be nice to me, I don’t know, I love you, I know im drunk in fact im totally wasted but I know my heart and I know it’s you I want! Daniel I never wanted to split up in the first place, I only did it because I thought it was what you wanted and that it would keep you happy” “Zara, what a mess we’ve caused, what a total mess, so what do we do from here Z? We’ll last for a few weeks and it will be all back to the beginning? Daniel questioned “No Daniel, No, I’ve got help, Greg well he kind of made me realise I needed to become myself again, im getting help I talk to someone about our baby and its helping, im crying less. I just need you back, need you back more than anything” Zara was getting very emotional “So we start afresh, but what do you do about Greg, break his heart? About Ruth, great friend you are leaving her asleep on your floor? What about when I want to get married, you want a child another way and the cycle starts again, what will we do then Zara, I know I broke your heart with Lisa, but you’ve broken my heart now, and I don’t want that to happen again” “Don’t talk to me about f***ing heart break Daniel, ive spent the last couple of years with my heart breaking and the only thing that helps is you, so don’t try to play the sympathy card, don’t! Daniel I will sort Greg and I’ll go home to Ruth, but please come with me, don’t leave me, you promised you would never leave Daniel, I love you”
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Post by bec2010 on Jul 25, 2011 19:43:44 GMT 1
“Zara I love you too, come on your totally wasted, get into bed, there is a t-shirt in the top draw put that on and ill ring Ruth and make sure she’s okay” Daniel decided that it was easier to please a drunk Zara. Zara climbed into bed and instantly fell asleep. Daniel rang Ruth and she was okay, just concerned for Zara as she had knocked back about three bottles of wine by herself tonight, Daniel reassured her everything was okay and he would sort everything. Daniel climbed into bed and cuddled up next to Zara, she was still fast asleep probably best that she try and sleep some of this hangover off before the hell she was going to experience tomorrow. She looked totally beautiful just lying there, totally wasted, but totally beautiful. Tomorrow was going to be one hell of a day.
Daniel awoke several hours later at 8am, only having around 3 hours sleep by a vomiting Zara, she was curled up next to the bed being sick into the bin “Daniel, I cannot remember anything, how am I here? Did we have sex? Where is Ruth? I think im dying Daniel” Quickly finishing her sentence so she could vomit again “Zara, you came here of your own accord at 4am declaring your undying love for me and that you wanted me back and you were going to finish being friends with Greg. No we didn’t have sex, after our little row you didn’t stay conscious for very long and Ruth is at yours asleep in bed, not feeling half as bad as you, and Zara you’re not dying, just had two bottles of wine too much” Zara climbed back up on the bed “Daniel im totally mortified, I think I remember shouting at Kevin, like some sort of Romeo and Juliette scene but im not totally mortified that I declared I love you, because I do love you, I miss us being a couple Daniel, I really hope you said you loved me back” Daniel rubbed Zara’s back “Of course I told you I loved you back, but before we can anywhere with us, you need to end whatever you started with Greg and we need the discussion we had last night but sober. “Daniel, oh my god, where is my phone” Zara suddenly seemed alarmed “Oh no, Ive just had another flash back or actually it may have been a dream, was I on the phone while I was here” “No I cannot say I remember you were and your phone is on the dresser” Daniel replied Zara quickly rushed to the dresser “No, No, No” she shouted as she read her sent items. She had sent a message to Greg, “Gfng im vrey sori I touyl lyk yuh aw s besg firned, so vgry dernk and ig soru” “Daniel is it legible” Zara looked panicked, she wasn’t panicked because she liked him in a lover way but because she liked his friendship and still wanted to remain friends. “Well check your inbox, you have one unread message” Daniel replied, feeling very smug, that he had one over one Greg, whoever he was he didn’t like that he nearly lost Zara to him. “Hi Zara, I’m guessing your very drunk and well that’s totally cool, nice for you to let your hair down. I understand, I know with everything that’s happened to you in the last few months and your long term relationship ending, but whatever it’s cool, anytime you fancy a drink or a film, give me a text! Your friend, Greg! X” Daniel didn’t like this smug git; he seemed a total ladies’ man and knew how to keep them sweet. “Ah, well at least that’s that one sorted” Zara blushed, and quickly proceeded to vomit. “Daniel I feel awful, not just on Greg but in myself. Daniel since we split up ive put weigh on, my body feels bloated and I just feel a mess” Zara was reaching the stage of self petty. “Z, your still beautiful to me, and no you have not, there is nothing on you” Daniel kissed her forehead “I’ve missed you, missed you so much, but Daniel let’s just sleep for a bit, im knackered I have been for the last few weeks and this hangover is making it so much worse” Daniel and Zara cuddled up and quickly went to sleep.
It was now 15 weeks since Zara and Daniel had lost baby granger, neither forgetting but both trying to move on. They quickly reunited that whirlwind Saturday night/ Sunday morning and moved straight back in together, minus Rupert the dog. Zara took advice from Greg and decided her and Daniel would do normal couple things like go for walks and go to the cinema, it was all working out well. They came to the idea that they would never be parents to their own child, but they had a child together, an angel child and Zara could play step mum with Izzy.
It was 8am and Daniel was struggling to get Zara out of bed “Come on Zara, get out of bed were going to be late” Daniel pleaded for the 6th time this morning “Ah im so tired Daniel, please, 5 more minutes” Zara whimpered “Z, come on” Daniel shouted Zara quickly got up and stomped around the house, and was ready within 20 minutes “Happy now” she was being very sarcastic towards Daniel and Daniel was totally biting They arrived the Mill just before opening and quickly rushed to collect their notes and too their desks. They both had a full day of patients, Zara used to like days like this cause they flew by but recently she was knackered and didn’t have the energy. She started to think of her symptoms, tired, weight gain and generally in herself she felt weak, she decided that she could possibly have an underactive thyroid or an infection; she decided that she needed to take some bloods but couldn’t manage herself so she would get Daniel to do it at dinner. She hurried through her morning patients, a pregnant woman who was groaning on about all the things she could do while she was pregnant and this was her sixth and it was hard on her own. Then Mr Lambert, who had always been a favourite of hers, reminded her of an older version of Daniel had brought her a bottle of wine and despite being near the end stages of his life, was always full of cheer and chatted to Zara for a while. Lunchtime came and Daniel knocked on her consulting room door. “Hello lovely, you in any of a better mood” Daniel had a cheeky grin on his face and sat down Zara smiled back “Much better, my sugar daddy came in before and he had totally cheered up my day, however you could cheer my day up even more” Daniels grin widened and Zara sat on his lap “Please can you take my blood” Zara giggled “And this is going to cheer your day up, Erm, how?” Daniel looked rather puzzled “Well Daniel ive been feeling tired and gaining a little weight and that, I really think ive got a thyroid problem, and well im not turning into a fat old woman, end of” Zara demanded “Okay, well Miss Carmichael, you will feel a sharp scratch” Daniel tried to return to his Doctor mode and this made Zara laugh “Zara you’re going to have to sit still else the needle will end up through your arm” Daniel took the blood for Zara. “Okay so are we going for lunch” Daniel asked “Well I thought we could go back to ours for a long lunch” Shooting Daniel a cheeky smile “Sounds fantastic” Daniel looked rather pleased with himself. “But give me two minutes, im just going to fill this blood form out and put it in Cherry’s room” Zara filled out the form, asking for a full blood check, checking diabetes and the thyroid. She also asked for an infection check and filled it under another name, a Miss Alex Grey.
Zara and Daniel returned two hours later looking rather pleased and happy with each other, they were walking hand in hand which was unusual as they never really did public displays of affection and they kissed in reception, instead of Mrs Tembe’s tut from a few months ago, she gave them a smile and was pleased they had worked things out. Neither Zara nor Daniel wanted to leave each other as they had just spent the last two hours in bed, eating and talking to each other. As Zara was about to enter her consulting room, Cherry shouted down the corridor, that she had put Alex Grey’s results on her desk. Zara opened the door, took her jacket off and sat down at the chair. Results for a full blood screening for Miss Alex Grey: Infection: Clear Diabetes (Type one and two): Negative Thyroid- Normal-Above Average HIV- Negative Blood Sugar- Low-Normal High levels of HCG
Zara stared at disbelief high levels of HCG, she was very confused, what did this mean? She still had pregnancy hormones in her body sixteen weeks later or that the test was wrong because there was no way she could be pregnant, no way at all. Stupid Cherry she must have mixed up the samples, that woman would be dangerous if she had brains.
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Post by bec2010 on Jul 25, 2011 20:30:39 GMT 1
Zara rang through to Cherry’s room “Hi Cherry, its Zara, are you sure these bloods are totally right” Zara asked “Yes Zara, ive done a million today, but I’m 100% sure that Alex Greys are correct, cause it was for you and I knew if I didn’t get it right you would act like this, why what’s wrong” Cherry asked “Well Miss Grey had a miscarriage 6 weeks ago, and well she still has high levels of HCG, I don’t think that’s right and she says there is no possibility of conceiving since so could it be off the miscarriage” Cherry paused for a moment and started flicking through a book “Right did you say six weeks ago Zara, because it could kind of be normal to still have high levels of HCG in the blood if she was far gone but she will have to return next week for another blood test. I would advise that any more than six weeks and still having high HCG in her blood is a concern, around up to 9 weeks for low levels of HGC but any more than 9 weeks later for Alex and I would suggest further investigation. Does that help Zara” Zara was shocked and tried to make a cover story “Yeah, brilliant thank you Cherry, I will follow your advice or maybe Miss Grey is just lying about not having sex since, thanks Cherry” Zara placed the handset back on the receiver and exhaled deeply.
She rang through to Daniel’s room “Daniel, my room, now” and placed the receiver back on the handset. Daniel hurried through around 5 minutes later “Sorry I had to finish with the patient, what’s wrong” “Daniel, I really don’t know, I filled the blood results and they have come back with High levels of HCG, so I’ve took a pregnancy test too and its positive Daniel, Im scared, we cannot be pregnant Daniel, why have I still got high levels of HCG in my blood, was not all of our child removed, Daniel bloody hell what’s going on” Zara’s eyes filled with tears, thinking she had something wrong or that the removal of the baby had gone wrong sickened her. “Well Zara, there is only one way, maybe two ways to narrow it down. We go to the hospital and visit the clinic or to calm you for the minute we can have a quick look via scan, but the machine is in Cherry’s room. “Okay Daniel, I feel sick, it feels like the last 16 weeks have been nothing and it’s all coming back, raw and pure emotion, Daniel im going to be sick, I still have part of our dead baby inside me or something is wrong, help” she burst out crying. Zara and Daniel left her room, ran into the Cherry’s room to find it empty, Cherry must have seen her last patient for the day as it had been cleaned and everything put away. They quickly locked both doors behind them and Zara lay on the bed. Both were scared, what if they were about to view something horrific. Daniel put a blob of lubricant on Zara’s stomach and started pushing the probe around. Daniels face suddenly appeared shocked and he took a deep breath in, a tear rolled down his check and then a smile appeared across his face. “What is it” Zara sat bolt upright and turned the screen to face her. The screen was alive with activity a grey silhouette bobbed around the screen, moving its arms and legs, Zara was pregnant. Both Daniel and Zara stared at the screen for ages, tears rolling down both of their faces whilst watching their child pull strange moves and faces. “Zara, are you sure it could only be mine, that only I could be the father” “Daniel ive never slept with anyone else, promise” Still transfixed on the grey silhouette bobbing around the screen. “Well according to these measurements we have a 14 week old baby” It was a bitter sweet moment for the pair, as this was when they had lost the other baby. But this baby seemed full of energy, the heart beat perfectly normal and the movement regular. This was a miracle, they had conceived a baby naturally.
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Post by georgia on May 16, 2014 16:39:42 GMT 1
This made me cry the whole way though. Very well written
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